Today turned out to be alot better than I had originally thought. I spoke with Alissa and Karyn, both of which mean the world to me. If not for the reassurance and sophistry of my friends I would quickly lose grip on anything I held. I love you guys and thank you for being there ( Read more... )

Today has been boring and mundane. I haven't spoken to anybody outside of my family at all. I desperately need to speak with Niki, and Karyn, but they aren't about ( Read more... )

Ok, some things went down friday...that much is obvious...I gave a very biased interpretation as I was angry, sad, hurt, &c. Here is the truth, as best as I know it about what happened ( Read more... )

Wow...this has to be one of the most boring days I have ever experienced...I stayed here and slept. Played some GC, talked to Karyn online...that's really it...Nothing really interesting...I very upset with myself right now...I don't feel like sying why, but life still sucks...I need to go out and do something, before i go mad...I start to wonder ( Read more... )

I guess I feel a LITTLE better...I went to Karyn's place for a couple hours...We talked and had a pretty fun time...Then her boyfriend came by, so I left...I'm jealous of them...and Cody and Alissa, and Kati and Jason...Why should I not be able to be loved by someone? Is it really that much to ask? I feel better after talking to Karyn...but I need ( Read more... )

Ok, so I just got back from model UN...I went in feeling like shit, got a little better (thank you kati), and ended up feeling horrible again...I would have liked to do something with Niki and Kati, but Niki was previously engaged (imagine that), and I don't know that Kati would have wanted to hang with just me ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm supposed to feel like...right now I'm really down and I don't see myself getting better anytime soon...I feel so pathetic and worthless...I need somebody to love me...I know that won't happen anytime soon, because let's face it, chicks don't really dig intellectuals or just me in general apparently...I've been so bored with ( Read more... )

Life is kind of in the middle right now. I'm still plagued with so much bad, but alot of things, like my friends and such, make me feel really good. I'm not sure what to think about certain things anymore...Things that I probably shouldn't even be worried about...Today I was really asking myself "Why must there be so much bad in life?" I just can't ( Read more... )

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Welly welly welly welly welly well...O my brothers, your humble narrator has had a great afternoon...after school I went to study with Cody and Jeff two of the most horrorshow vecks around...we studied for a while then played video games...after dinner at Cody's I came home to see that my best friend in the entire world online...She feels like shit ( Read more... )