how to speak without lies ( Read more... )

in the dream i was at this park we had in west chester where we used to go smoke pot, theres a road and on the left is a bunch of ponds and trails on the right is a forest but this time the right was another park back in savannah that is one big trail with swamps on either side, i started going left then i saw austin and tom going the other way so ( Read more... )

shits wack but its all just feelings, its so crazy how intensly it fluctuates yet theres one im always trying to get back to

last night coulda been so sweet, potential fun or maybe if im super lucky sex the scene was way too scary  left before i did something id regret except leaving i cant stand to watch myself through all of your eyes i will never ( Read more... )

all i hear "youre stupid"

everybody has the same look, the same tired silence, fuck you; i used to be a person, now just a car, cigarettes, a six pack or weed; no one knows me or cares, you cut me down and i let you

pleeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaasssseeeeeeee stop smoking

i neeeed to get laid

shits gettin real

more people need to get in my life

todays valentines day i didnt realize that, people found out bout my last entry by people i mean those mentioned how?

wasteful im so wasted, useful im being used, silent i am empty, and you are full of shit, like me like this open can melting, bubbling meat rising in the air, leaving a streak ( Read more... )

i have a girlfriend now, but it doesnt really feel like it; actually i dont even know why  i asked her out, well thats a lie there was a lull in conversation, i remember thinking "im gonnna miss her but its not gonna work out" then all she does it sit next to me at the party and i forget damnit, either super cool or the worste idea ever i dunno ( Read more... )

so very very shitty

everything is

so very very empty

and wrought with strings

covered in glass

that shatters when they intersect

im so fuckin stupid i have nothing

im gonna write a book about all the world leaders being caught for corruption causing a world wide revolt against government, after it collapses the world enters a chaotic state of degenartion of culture, language, etc. and eventually the extinction of the human race by the hands of the infastructure which was meant to save us from ourselves

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in germany they say things are "hammer" (pronounced Hamma) when something or someone is hard or tough, i think thats pretty sweet; the other day i realized time doesn't actually exist because when you think about it the past is unreachable and the future is unpredictable neither are actually there the present is what truly exists but barely because ( Read more... )

"I was wanting you to love me
But your love it never came
All the other love around me
Was just wasting all away
I must have been tripping
Just ego tripping"

arggggggggggrhghrhghrhghrhg

it felt good though, you need heartbreak to care; its kinda like why evil is necessary in the world i think? if there wasnt the pain of regection there would be less ( Read more... )