There is something fundamentally broken in me.

253lbs as of this morning. disgusting

I never do learn.

I had it all and I let my pride be my downfall. Like always. Guess thats why they call it a sin.

Even after all this time it still hurts. Im an emotional hemophiliac. It just keeps bleeding. Every mistake, heartache, missed oppurtunity just festering wounds. I've filled the cuts with booze, women, excersise, hermiting, nothing helps. Im a fuckin train wreck. I just want a good day. Just once.

never thought Id miss my phone so god damn much.

I miss my 22 year old self.

Its a tits or gtfo kinda day

Once more into the fray,
Into the last good fight I'll ever know.
Live and die on this day,
Live and die on this day.

Resonating pretty hard with me lately.

This is not my life