I made the motion at Council that I needed to find Billy as he had had an interaction with El. Because of El's status and Billy's past it was agreed to send out the hunters.
When he tells me 'lijah still loves me I just know this is it. He's going to kill me right here. But his laugh and easy going manner - confuse me. Could he really have changed this much? Could I?
I listen to him and enjoy the laugh we share over that bastard Ben. When he asks about the Tsunami Benefit gig I know I'm busted. I'm not ashamed of what I did though.
"Ah did naw mean to break both hes legs Rhys. A gentle push don' the stairs was all Ah did. Ah just needed an excuse te get you oveh there. Ah can naw believe ye have neveh changed ye cell noombeh!"
He laughs and shrugs telling me he had a hard enough remembering the one he has had all these years. The he thanks me. Tells me he and 'lijah needed that time apart, and my timing was impeccable.
It's odd sitting here talking to him about 'lijah. I still love him too. But no matter what I could have done, or did not do, I know 'lijah truly belongs with Rhys. They have something I could never give 'lijah, no matter how much I wanted to.
I sigh, "Ah can naw eveh expect aneh of ye te forgive meh. Ah know he married Shoxeh," I sigh and close my eyes, "Ah knew he hates meh as well."
So many memories of Shox. Good times with him, Dom and 'lijah. I tried to get some revenge on Craig for him only to discover that son of a bitch is a damn warrior angel.
"Ah was fightin tha hungeh... Ah - mah thinkin was... Naw Ah do naw want te blame it on tha."
I look over at him and shake my head, "Ye can naw forgive meh. Noon of ye can. If Ah could take it all away Ah would. 'e is a great kid and Ah know Shoxeh loovs him. Ye all do."
He's right. We all do love Dev, and I know I will not forgive him.
"Listen, El needs to talk to you. You two never got any closure, never got to just talk without some one shooting or stabbing or screaming at each other."
He cringes and I give him a soft smile, "I fought for him too Billy. I hurt him and Dev as well. I'm certainly no innocent. I'd like to think you truly are trying to make amends. That you can be trusted. El wants you back in his life but not if you are going to try to kill us all again."
I can hear Billy's shite and I smile, "Sorry to interrupt, we will just go inside and wait."
Winking at Orlando and loving the way he bows his head and I can see him blush from up here. I turn and lead Billy back inside. When I get to the large sofa I plop down and wait.
Billy is looking at me like I'm insane causing me to laugh, "Orli is no threat. He and El have a special love, I'm not threatened by him."
I have to chuckle when he takes a step back and I swear he is thinking about leaving - fast. "Sit down Billy. Once they get up here I'll take Orli and give you and El some time."
Just the I see them on the balcony and I stand telling Billy to give me a moment with them first. Opening the sliders I step out and close them behind me, "I had Stan check his blood El, he is truly sorry and wants to change. You need to talk to him."
Looking at Orlando I wink and take his hand, "Come on, we can go compare notes."
He squeaks and I laugh before leaning in and kissing El gently on the lips. "I will be right here Pet. I love you."
I pull away and look at Rhys, really look at him. He just gives me a knowing gaze and backs away.
I look from him to inside, to Billy, and back again. I don't want to talk to Billy, not now, no matter what I said before. Him being here threatens too much. I don't want that responsibility. I have too much to lose. Way too much.
He waits for me and Rhys looks at me expectantly and I know I said I would do this but the reality is so different.
I take a step, another one, and another, then stop. How many do I have to take! I turn back, look to Rhys but then he isn't there.
I watch him struggle to come in. Rhys has already walked off with Orli, he must know 'lijah can do this.
Taking a step forward I speak softly to him, "lijah Ah know ye may naw wan' te talk te meh. But Ah thin' ye were righ'. We need te talk. Ah respect ye and Rhys; Ah do naw wan' te do anymore harm."
A flash of that anger I felt before jolts through me. "There's no more harm you could do that you haven't done already."
I bite the inside of my lip at the touch of hurt I see in his eyes and knowing I'm capable of making him feel it somehow gives me the incentive to make my feet move. I stop in front of him and cross my arms. "Why did you come Billy?"
I've been watching from the hallway with Orli. Orli keeps shifting, I know he feels he shouldn't be watching, but I've kept a tight hold on his hand not letting him leave.
When El finally speaks, I clear my throat and step into the room. They both jump and let go of each other. I smile and hold up my hand, "It's cool, I'm unarmed."
I get nothing but silence, then I hear Orli giggle nervously. I laugh and pull him into the room. "Ok, now that we are all here, listen Billy if you were going to start this new life away from El because of the past... maybe you don't need to."
Still holding Orli's hand I walk closer to them, Orli stumbling along, "There is no reason we can't all be friends again. We've all matured, grown up... I know El and I have seen alot of shit and have learned to treasure the time we have."
Finally letting go of Orli's hand I walk over to El, "I know you care for Orli, and you two have a special relationship. You know I'm fine with that. Tell me what you can handle with Billy."
I know I just stare at him at first. My heart is worn out and emotionally exhausted. I'm confused with what Rhys is asking of me. "I don't understand what you mean..." I glance back to Billy as if he is going to give me the answer.
I stand just inside the ether with Orli behind me, leaning against me. I look over my shoulder, actually just turn my head and whisper, "Getting a good look?"
He licks his lips and just nods his head. I have to smile at that. Nothing about Orli is a lie or hidden. He is so open and honest. I love that about him.
Looking back to El and Billy I take a deep breath and smile wide, full of pride. El is so beautiful, so sexy - and mine. I know he will always be mine. I don't feel any jealousy or anger towards Billy.
I learned to forgive El for our past, I've learned to forgive myself as well. I can forgive Billy - for the most part. If Devon can forgive him, then I can as well - that still remains to be seen.
I clear my throat and press back against Orli - and his erection. Hmmm he is kind squishy and nice. "Orli, unless you plan on using that thing shift over."
I sense more than hear it. A giggle. I turn in Billy's arms and look around. It's a guess because I can't see them but I suspect it's a good one. "You're watching us aren't you?" I pull away from Billy slightly uncomfortable with it. "I heard you Orli..."
I know they are there. Now I am extremely self conscious of the fact that I was just really enjoying a kiss with Billy, right in front of Rhys. I frown at the rest of the empty room. "Rhys?"
I sigh and look at Orli. He frowns and I can tell he is sorry. My fault for bringing him in here with me. I take his hand and step out of the ether into the room on the other side from El and Billy.
"Sorry Lig, didn't mean to interrupt - or perv."
I look over at him, "Yes you did. You didn't mean to get caught."
He blushes and looks away and I smile as I look back at El, "It wasn't my intention to perv on you Pet. I wanted to keep an eyes on things because I - well I really did think you two were going to talk
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Rhys' kiss serves as a reminder of what is at stake here. The love I feel for him and the love I feel for Billy. I try hard not to compare the two in my head.
I nod my head at Rhys, not really sure of what I want right now. I look to Orli then back to Rhys. I don't even know how Orli fits into the 'us' picture completely yet and now I have to decide on something as big as 'Billy'. "You sure about this Rhys? I mean, really sure?"
I look up at him, so beautiful, and take his hands in mine, "Ah know. But Where does tha leaves us? Ah can naw make love te ye... Ah do naw know wha is worse. Bein' without ye, or bein' with ye and naw bein' able te please ye."
I didn't think I could still run that fast with this extra weight! But I make it back to the house and up the stairs in only a few minutes. On my way up the steps I'm hollering for them, "ELIJAH! BILLY!!"
The sliders are open and I see them rush out to the balcony just as I take the top step, "It's Rhys - he's fuck I don't know! But he's collapsed and he's - there is something wrong!"
My heart instantly sinks and I wrench my hands out of Billy's. "Where?!" Even as I yell it at Orli I am reaching out to find him and then in a flash I am there, on the beach beside him. Panicking I call his name as I fall to my knees urgently beside him. "Rhys!"
I cough and am able to breath now that El is here with me. I look up at him, the sun is so bright...
"El.. where are..."
Sudden;y there is a flash of light and there is.. Orli? He doesn't look like himse - BILLY! I gasp for breath before growling, "What the fuck are you doing here!?"
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I listen to him and enjoy the laugh we share over that bastard Ben. When he asks about the Tsunami Benefit gig I know I'm busted. I'm not ashamed of what I did though.
"Ah did naw mean to break both hes legs Rhys. A gentle push don' the stairs was all Ah did. Ah just needed an excuse te get you oveh there. Ah can naw believe ye have neveh changed ye cell noombeh!"
He laughs and shrugs telling me he had a hard enough remembering the one he has had all these years. The he thanks me. Tells me he and 'lijah needed that time apart, and my timing was impeccable.
It's odd sitting here talking to him about 'lijah. I still love him too. But no matter what I could have done, or did not do, I know 'lijah truly belongs with Rhys. They have something I could never give 'lijah, no matter how much I wanted to.
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"How are we to forgive you for what you did to Devon?"
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I sigh, "Ah can naw eveh expect aneh of ye te forgive meh. Ah know he married Shoxeh," I sigh and close my eyes, "Ah knew he hates meh as well."
So many memories of Shox. Good times with him, Dom and 'lijah. I tried to get some revenge on Craig for him only to discover that son of a bitch is a damn warrior angel.
"Ah was fightin tha hungeh... Ah - mah thinkin was... Naw Ah do naw want te blame it on tha."
I look over at him and shake my head, "Ye can naw forgive meh. Noon of ye can. If Ah could take it all away Ah would. 'e is a great kid and Ah know Shoxeh loovs him. Ye all do."
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"Listen, El needs to talk to you. You two never got any closure, never got to just talk without some one shooting or stabbing or screaming at each other."
He cringes and I give him a soft smile, "I fought for him too Billy. I hurt him and Dev as well. I'm certainly no innocent. I'd like to think you truly are trying to make amends. That you can be trusted. El wants you back in his life but not if you are going to try to kill us all again."
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Winking at Orlando and loving the way he bows his head and I can see him blush from up here. I turn and lead Billy back inside. When I get to the large sofa I plop down and wait.
Billy is looking at me like I'm insane causing me to laugh, "Orli is no threat. He and El have a special love, I'm not threatened by him."
I have to chuckle when he takes a step back and I swear he is thinking about leaving - fast. "Sit down Billy. Once they get up here I'll take Orli and give you and El some time."
Just the I see them on the balcony and I stand telling Billy to give me a moment with them first. Opening the sliders I step out and close them behind me, "I had Stan check his blood El, he is truly sorry and wants to change. You need to talk to him."
Looking at Orlando I wink and take his hand, "Come on, we can go compare notes."
He squeaks and I laugh before leaning in and kissing El gently on the lips. "I will be right here Pet. I love you."
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I look from him to inside, to Billy, and back again. I don't want to talk to Billy, not now, no matter what I said before. Him being here threatens too much. I don't want that responsibility. I have too much to lose. Way too much.
He waits for me and Rhys looks at me expectantly and I know I said I would do this but the reality is so different.
I take a step, another one, and another, then stop. How many do I have to take! I turn back, look to Rhys but then he isn't there.
I look back to Billy. I can't do this.
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Taking a step forward I speak softly to him, "lijah Ah know ye may naw wan' te talk te meh. But Ah thin' ye were righ'. We need te talk. Ah respect ye and Rhys; Ah do naw wan' te do anymore harm."
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I bite the inside of my lip at the touch of hurt I see in his eyes and knowing I'm capable of making him feel it somehow gives me the incentive to make my feet move. I stop in front of him and cross my arms. "Why did you come Billy?"
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When El finally speaks, I clear my throat and step into the room. They both jump and let go of each other. I smile and hold up my hand, "It's cool, I'm unarmed."
I get nothing but silence, then I hear Orli giggle nervously. I laugh and pull him into the room. "Ok, now that we are all here, listen Billy if you were going to start this new life away from El because of the past... maybe you don't need to."
Still holding Orli's hand I walk closer to them, Orli stumbling along, "There is no reason we can't all be friends again. We've all matured, grown up... I know El and I have seen alot of shit and have learned to treasure the time we have."
Finally letting go of Orli's hand I walk over to El, "I know you care for Orli, and you two have a special relationship. You know I'm fine with that. Tell me what you can handle with Billy."
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"What do ye mean Rhys? Ah wan' te be friends with 'lijah - Ah've nah asked for anehthin more."
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Looking back at El I place my hand on his cheek and rub my thumb over his cheek bone, "But do you want more?"
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He licks his lips and just nods his head. I have to smile at that. Nothing about Orli is a lie or hidden. He is so open and honest. I love that about him.
Looking back to El and Billy I take a deep breath and smile wide, full of pride. El is so beautiful, so sexy - and mine. I know he will always be mine. I don't feel any jealousy or anger towards Billy.
I learned to forgive El for our past, I've learned to forgive myself as well. I can forgive Billy - for the most part. If Devon can forgive him, then I can as well - that still remains to be seen.
I clear my throat and press back against Orli - and his erection. Hmmm he is kind squishy and nice. "Orli, unless you plan on using that thing shift over."
He giggles, apologizes and moves over.
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I know they are there. Now I am extremely self conscious of the fact that I was just really enjoying a kiss with Billy, right in front of Rhys. I frown at the rest of the empty room. "Rhys?"
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"Sorry Lig, didn't mean to interrupt - or perv."
I look over at him, "Yes you did. You didn't mean to get caught."
He blushes and looks away and I smile as I look back at El, "It wasn't my intention to perv on you Pet. I wanted to keep an eyes on things because I - well I really did think you two were going to talk ( ... )
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I nod my head at Rhys, not really sure of what I want right now. I look to Orli then back to Rhys. I don't even know how Orli fits into the 'us' picture completely yet and now I have to decide on something as big as 'Billy'. "You sure about this Rhys? I mean, really sure?"
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The sliders are open and I see them rush out to the balcony just as I take the top step, "It's Rhys - he's fuck I don't know! But he's collapsed and he's - there is something wrong!"
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"El.. where are..."
Sudden;y there is a flash of light and there is.. Orli? He doesn't look like himse - BILLY! I gasp for breath before growling, "What the fuck are you doing here!?"
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