I am such a fucking idiot. Why did I believe him when he said he loved me and wanted me back and would never hurt me again? I should never have trusted him again. I hate myself for still caring about him, though. I hate myself because if he showed up here at school or even at my house over Thanksgiving and told me he wanted me back, I would believe ( Read more... )

this hurts. this hurts so bad. i didnt want to it to hurt this bad but it does. how could he do this, now? how could he make me think that he cares so much about me then turn around and say that not only can he live without me, but he wants to? that we can maybe give it a try next summer. god this hurts. i just want to go to sleep and never wake up ( Read more... )

and now you want to talk ( Read more... )

Haven't written in this in awhile, but i was reading some others & decided maybe it was about time ( Read more... )

Lori's Existing Situation ( Read more... )

Not a good weekend. Let's just leave it at that.

3 more weeks until fall break. hopefully by then things will get better here & i won't try to find an excuse to stay home for the rest of the year. :/

So this is the end of my very first ND football weekend. & i am officially a member of the nd cult & damn proud of that fact. msu (i know i have friends there so i apologize in advanced) is definitely the least classiest team i have ever seen. i am really glad i didnt go there ( Read more... )

FIRSTS ( Read more... )

Here i am, like three weeks into college. still dont really know what to think. am i having fun? yes. am i having as much fun as i thought i would be? no. & right there is my justification for never having high expectations lol. yeahhhhh im a nerd ( Read more... )

So today was my second day of classes. boooo. actually most of them dont seem all that bad. i mean, sure my italian professor spoke entirely in italian for a whole hour both yesterday & today, but at least i learned a few italian words. no clue what they mean, but i do know them. & calc looks like a pain in the ass. the professor isnt really going ( Read more... )