I got on here hoping I would be filled with these thoughts that needed to come out, but truthfully I've done so much talking with friends as of late that I really have nothing meaningful left to say...I have this new found love of reading blogs of people I don't know. I'm not sure if it's a sign that I find the people in my life to be boring, or ( Read more... )

Wowsers, sort of forgot this thing was still here. Kind of neat and kind of pathetic how much of my life was spent lamenting over Dari..I can proudly say, I have not spoken to her in months and truly have no desire to ( Read more... )

I did it. I threw it all away. Every note and every card..gone. I feel..different? Relieved? Sad as fuck? I mean it's been one year almost but I always held out hope, hell we even got back together a few times for good measure before I was fucked over again and again..I allowed myself to read two or three of the notes and cards, and while they ( Read more... )

Yeah so if I could stop being entirely undesirable to everyone that would be great. I miss the days when I could actually get people interested in me. Now it's a fight just to have someone notice me. I mean I really don't think I'm that bad of a guy..Maybe in my old age I'm not changing enough for everyone else :-\

Dear Antoine,
Don't assume all girls are like Dari. Just because they cheat with you and act like you're together behind their boyfriend's back does NOT mean they'll leave their boyfriend for you. So getting attached is a mistake on your part and means you're not really the bastard you strive to be.

Love,
Antoine

I'm not meant to be happy.

So I admit it, I might have a drinking problem. I might be fucking up my schooling because of it. I understand and I really do need to change something...fuck.

What the fuck ever. Girls are so god damn fucking stupid and frustrating. Never once did I tell this stupid fucking bitch I wanted a girlfriend or anything. I really hate stupid fucking scared idiots. Like really, you're 2 1/2 hours away, I have no intentions of doing long distance again. I like seeing her when I do, but I'm not trying to do ( Read more... )

There is a ridiculous amount of conflict in my life right now and i have no idea what to do about it all...I'm soooo fucked right now mentally...FUCK
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I'm ridiculously lonely. Friendship can only go so far. Do I love my friends, most of them and most the of time yes. But there's something missing. Something huge, and everyday I just feel more and more lonely. I miss having someone to care about who cared about me as equally. I miss having someone to look forward to seeing. I no longer truly look ( Read more... )