Ive come to realize i get angry real fast when people do certain things....and the one thing that always gets me is the word doubt. if anyone doubts me i automatcally question it....now when my best freinds/family doubt me its a whole nother type of Angry ( Read more... )

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yesterday was a scary moment.

i saw one of the girls who is like my LIFE in a scary situation. she had an asthema like attack after playing in the basket ball game she sat down and she was shaking and she couldnt breathe.

ive never seen her hurt in 12 years of knowing her.

i saw that and my whole heart+Stomach+mind+world fell down untill ( Read more... )

hi.

Life oh Life how you have treated me.

This is what i have learned at the start of 2006.........

• Everything  you know or knew. might not stay.people will leave you and it will probabbly suck.
• People may come back into your life. should you choose to let them in? go ahead. but with caution of course.
• Oh the people you THOUGHT wer your NEW GOOD ( Read more... )

Im alive.
and nothing is going on with me.
i have had drama but its all stupid shit and it dosnt really matter anyways. all im looking forward is the next half of my junipr year.
becuase right now at the half way mark.....im doing okay. im doing alot better. but its the little things that get to me right? oh well things should get better. ill make ( Read more... )

its the worst feeling to not have people there for you.

im not mad at joy + zef  becuase i know they arer busy and i want to be the least on thier minds so for me its like i dont even bother with them and ill talk to them when thier seasons over ya know? and even though im bummed that theirs no more us time and i feel like im pushed away but i ( Read more... )

So this week has been a learning experience for me......

ever since i was little my family always thought of me as the baby. the little kid. who would never grow up. and i would always be dependent on my parents. and that i would need them for everything and i will never go anywhere in this world becuase of that...

for 11 years i have worked my ass ( Read more... )

Ok so ive been reading over my past entreis and when i read them i just kinda smile and look at how my life has changed....and yet theres still one thing the same....no matter what will happen i will always be attached and love joy and zef....i feel like im soo  close to them that i cant imagine a life without them....as much as i hate to think ( Read more... )

sOoOoo updates hmm......lets do a list....

Cought Me Off Gaurd - so i think it was on friday i talked to kelly and we just started talking about how unhappy i have been and just the things that have been happening and how i just really am unhappy with alot of things....right off the bat i seriuosly thought she was gonna say some cheezy thing like " ( Read more... )

same old story same sad kid.......... just dosnt get any simpler than that...... im not happy.....no one pleases me....people annoy me....i hate being like this......i want someone to make me happy....... and i want to do things becuase i feel like it and not always care of the outcome..... i need to be more free and alot less perfect.... but that ( Read more... )

Sooo........ what is up? well since my last entry things have just kinda gown down and down and down...... and again its nothing that really just like totally killing me and bringing me down.......its just im not happy anymore.....nothing makes me happy.......no one makes me happy......and i hate that feeling.........and im just stressed and tierd ( Read more... )