so in american lit we wer asked to write about how our school year has gone so far and i wrote about how hell this year has been with my clubs and how it was getting to me and i couldnt take the fast pace lifestyle cuz im used to comming home and sleeping and i would be out doing club stuff all day evedryday for about 5 weeks and it was hell ( Read more... )

WHAT?

i just dont know aymore..... i am sooo confused.....and i dunno but i feel soo weird right now.....im pissed and confused and happy and annoyed and just Ahhhh...... heres a quick list of random.....

- ahhh just tierd from everything thats going on

- donna..... shes always on my mind and i dunno i just want to talk to her... she wont answer

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Picture this = You Have Two Best Freinds Whom You Have Known Since Kindergarden and you have grown together and spent so much of you lives with and its like you talk to them every day..... these are the type of people you run to when somethings wrong or you just need to get through the day..... ive had friends like these since ive been in ( Read more... )

its strange... as much as i care for vanessa as still being my freind.....i feel like just telling her ::FUCK YOU:: becuase i dont need this.... and i didnt deserve any of this shit..... and you know she says things could change but they wont... we prolly will never speak to each other..... yes we will wonder how one is doing but never actually ( Read more... )

Well i just got back from San Diego and yeah it was one of those things i really needed and i dunno it gave me alot of time to think and i dunno i guess i thought alot about wat has happend this summer and there are things i really have to just let go....

i have to let go the fact that vanessa thinks im not "cool" and that im not a her freind ( Read more... )

Im telling i am soo Happy to get out of here ..... im going to san diego tommrrow and this is something i NEED...... i just want to get away from EVERY SINGLE THING AND PERSON who has cuased me stress...... and wat i think its kiinda funny is that the people that are closer too me cause me more stress than the poeple not close to me...... and the ( Read more... )

sooo..... yesterday donna left..... and i dunno i guess im not all entirely sad about it becuase im happy for her and well i just feel like this is wat i need..... i need to be independent and i just need to just go into my last two years of high school almost like im starting over........i want to meet new people and expreince new things and even ( Read more... )

HmmMm...... well lets see...

last night - i got to hang out with the guys of NIC and i had so much fun with them becuase they always are so laid back and when i hang out with them i feel like i dont have a care in th world and i liek that feeling.. and yeah its fun hanging out with them becuase there so dumb and i mean if fun to just have some fun ( Read more... )

So Updates updates......

Am i Happy?No Not really...... im kinda not in the intrest of not feeling emotions right now...... shit has happend..... it sucked but wat can i do? i mean people are leaving me but it almost like im wanting them to leave now already so i can just forget about them and move on already.... one has gone already (nessa) and ( Read more... )