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[loserbaby]

Have you ever had one of those mind numbing moments where you feel as though you've been ripped from your own center of gravity? Where all of the sudden, what was up is now down, and everything that was right is now so unbelievably wrong? Where you doubt every single component of your so-called life, up to that strained belief that you are in fact

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[shatterbrain]

Colleen, Your eating disorder is NOT the reason that you are my best friend. You are special to me with or without it. Of course, I would rather not have to see you go through something like this because you don't deserve to feel this way, but since it's there i think Hell, we can get through this, Colleen can beat this, she has that strive to do whatever she has set in in her mind. When she wants something, OH, she gets it alright. Leenie, just remember that I love you no matter what. Even if you turned into a spider(which are the animals I hate the most do remember that), I would still be proud to call you my best friend. Leenie, I know that sounded dumb, but, I'm just tryin to make a point here that, your eating disorder does not make you who you are. You are not Colleen Eating Disorder McCarthy. You are Colleen McCarthy. To me, it wouldn't matter how plain or boring you are, as long as your are here. okay? I hope in someway i have made you feel better.

I agree

[anonymous]

I agree. And I've never respected your opinion more. Those are real, deep thoughts, Colleen.

Re: I agree

[loserbaby]

who are you?

[loserbaby]

See, Lara, I dont read that and think "wow what a beautiful person" I think wow what a screwed up person, someone throw her in a cage. I really need to get it together....

[loserbaby]

blah blah you should tell yourself this when you feel bad about grades blah blah you rock my world blah thanks for being such a great friend blah colleen blah

[anonymous]

I am probably going to come off as an insensitive jerk, but oh well. What happens when nobody is around? It seems as if many of your anxities come from the attention or lack there of that people give you and their opinions of you. What defines and describes you? Whatever that is, you have control over it because you can become someone different. Unless, of course, you define yourself(as the rest of this fucked-up society defines you) by how you look and how attractive you are. The problem is, how attractive you are is extremely relative. So of course you are going to take the most negative opinion of you that comes along. How do you think people that are born with defrormities feel when they realize that for the rest their lives, they will be unattractive? What do they do then? Should they kill themselves? No. They find who they are beyond that and they learn to accept who that is. I know I sound preachy, but I wouldn't be saying a word if I had not been in a situation similar to yours. I also know that whatever I say deosn't really

[loserbaby]

....and who are you?? Are u the same person who posted that other anonymous one too? If you're going to pass judgement of me, I think I kinda have a right to know if you and I even know each other

[anonymous]

Will that be a real smile?....Or is it the one you hang on your wall?

[loserbaby]

.......depends