i can honestly say.
i dislike myself to the fullest.
i'd say hate.
but it's such a strong word.
but it's pretty damn close.

i can honestly say.
i dislike myself to the fullest.
i'd say hate.
but it's such a strong word.

i can honestly say.
i dislike myself to the fullest.

i got a letter in the mail.
stating that i have jury duty.
may 29th.

maybe the army will let me go home and serve my jury duty.
and then go back to war.

i'm bored with life.
and it seems.
that everything in my life is bored with me.

still in iraq.
still in love with lindse.
NOT coming home in october.
coming home in january.
still sandy.
getting hot.
saving money.
still hates hotdogs.
my left thigh goes numb every now and then.
passed a pt test.
stegasaurus tattooed on my forearm.
i have hair.
offically does not like myspace.
and lj.
yet i still check them both.

today.
i found out.
i'm pretty much from my waist down.
minus the groin area.
IM CRIPPLED.
i'm like a train wreck.
so many problems with my leg knee feet and hip.
fuck.

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maybe i'm not as awesome as we all think i am.
maybe i'm too paranoid.
maybe i'm scared.
maybe i'm worried.
maybe i'm everything i shouldn't be.

one fantastic sleepless nite.
followed by.
one awesome day at work.
followed by.
repetition.