its now 5:24 am.
just so you know.
i should of went to sleep.
but i didn't.
i made a mistake.
fuckin' a.

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day 5

going on day 4.
little cranky at times.
but quitting is very possible.

i think my birthday cake is bad.
not the cake itself.
but the frosting.

but the shampoo is awesome.

everything seems to be falling into place.
right on.

maybe i made a mistake.

life.
is complicated.
i got some amazing advice.
tonite.
that will probably change the whole outlook on everything.
because i love her.
and thats that.
nothing will be able to change that.
not the army.
not my anxiety.
nothing.
too much of me has been invested.
just to throw it away.
i might as well be throwing myself away.

my birthday is in one month.
i honestly don't care.
the one thing i did care about.
i scared.
maybe i should re enlist.
life is going to suck reguardless.
might as well have some job security.
and free room and board.
blah.
idk

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