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I can't take it
All day yesterday, I couldn't help myself and just watch the twilight movies. It was on, and I just said fuck it, out won't hurt to go back in time in high school. But the thing that got to me most was when bella was seeing hallucinations of edward, and then their reunion. I couldn't help but think of Chris. All day I just wanted to leave my house ( Read more... ) -
Wow, I'm mad.
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God, I can't believe it
I can't believe how much I miss you. Holy hell does it drive me insane.
I love you and miss you, and that will never change, we will be together one day again.
I just really needed to get that out of me....
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Headache..
I woke up 24 mins ago from a supposed nap, just to finish up some homework, and I get some weird urger to read Chris' tumblr ( Read more... ) -
Intuitive
So the feeling I was getting last night was Chris not feeling well at all. Should of listened to my brother...
He called me and I didn't know what to say, speechless. I was jus speaking about him, good things, in hopes of trying to not think so much of my weird dream I had last night.
So trying to catch up or to make conversation, I asked what has ( Read more... ) -
Whoa...
I feel horrible ( Read more... ) -
Would of been 1 whole year...
Today would of been my 1 year anniversary of being engaged to Chris.
I'll never get to be engaged ever again, it's sad, but reality, cause I don't think I'll be meeting anyone anytime soon, or ever.
I think I'll be perfectly fine with that.
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Whirlwind
These past 2 days were honestly the best days of my life.
I will never regret it.
Now back to reality, I woke up 2 hours ago from coming home at 9:16 in the morning and woke up at 5:35 this afternoon. Being on a motorcycle was the best and most exhilarating thing I've ever done in my life, and hope to have more rides in the future.
Time to practice ( Read more... ) -
If you ever let me go, I'll walk as far as past the sun
Yesterday was a scary thought: Did I really lose him this time?
I'm so confused. I say it's in my nature to move on, but I have the doubt in my heart, my mind, it's blinding me. I never asked for any of this to come my way. I feel horrible, but I think I put the blame on Chris for so much, that I didn't realize my mistakes. While the heart is ( Read more... ) -
Guard Your Heart
I really don't know what you are trying to do. Confuse me? You tell me to lose feelings and all of this crap, and then turn around and be romantic.
I did meet somebody, I know I move fast but it's in my nature. If I dwell, then I won't be able to move on and let new life into my life. You want to expand, I'll give it to you. This is the last straw ( Read more... )