i just feel completely helpless to everything going on around me right now ( Read more... )

so there are a couple things missing this fall ( Read more... )

whose tears were these which ran the ink?
were they his by chance from telling her?
were they hers by chance from reading it?
they could have been collective,
they could have been from someone else.
why don't we see what's at the bottom,
why don't we see what comes next.
...
we couldn't fake it, so why even try?

goodbye to sleep. i think this staying up is ( Read more... )

we got dinner, listened to blues, talked music, life, politics, and the world.
then played pool, foosball and air hockey.

breathe it in ryan... breathe it in reeeeeaaaaaal deep.

Your Favorite Weapon CD ( Read more... )

as i exited burger king at about 3:55 pm, jesse lacey, derrick sherman, and anathollo's erica froman are casually carrying on conversation as they stroll about, just outside of the higher ground venue as if they have no business being there- nevermind being just hours away from performing.

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for about 3 years now this journal of mine has been riddled with all my banter and questions and realizations regarding love and life ( Read more... )

wait... i am actually.
when in the position to provide flem with qualities of ronnie that exceeded mine, the only positive one she could give referred to him making more money than me.

what a whore.

friday at work was miserable. i wanted to vomit/fall down/die whatever. i havent been so sick in so long. and it was 90% mental- the other 10% being hunger ( Read more... )

so in my last post i mentioned how my mom had just gone to the hospital ( Read more... )