so... if anyone who had foreseen the future told me yesterday morning what would take place in these past 12 hours- well i probably would have slapped them in the face for being such a filthy filthy liar ( Read more... )

she smiled.

i melted.

eek ( Read more... )

i need to get laid.

i cant control these thoughts or feelings.
god i wish i could
desparity, jealousy, longing, and missing have all completely taken over me.
and now shes drunk, and its only making it worse.
if things are even going where im imagning i just may shatter- and i dont see anyone around who would care enough to pick up the pieces and reassemble.

im selfish.

ive just come to this conclusion, based on how i constantly assume that everyone should concern themselves with me and no one else.

kill me.

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hand
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

okay...
uhh...
okay.
so one big thing that im trying to damn hard to really convince myself is the idea that something else will come along ( Read more... )

i spent last night with amanda ( Read more... )

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hand
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

(new painting perhaps?)