ahhhhhhhhhhh

[lost_cuz]

one word to describe me right not dead. Or Atleast i wish it upon my self. I cant sleep even tho i should because in my sleep ill be happy a little, cuz i am semi dead. Thats the only place realioty doesnt and cant bite u in the ass. My heart hurts and i am not even joking it feels worse then getting kicked in the balls. I have been dipressed all

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[apctool]

I hate to be the asshole sometimes, and I never wanted something like this to happen, I dunno what I did to add into this huge ordeal, but I'm srry for anything I did, and We need a hell of a midnight trip[ sometime soon :)

[o2bubbly4u]

alex,

i thought i did love you. and i know i meant it that one time when i said it, i just had that feeling in me. i know i fucked up last night. big time. i dont know what i want. i cant have 2 but i dont want 0 either. i never lied to u like u suggested in ur entry. i didnt and dont want to hurt u, but maybe now is better then later. i dont know. im hurt too, believe me.
i think we have to talk, and i'm going to remember what i want to say this time. i just gotta figure out what i want to say.
i still love you, i do, but at the same time, i dont.

<3 barbie