Tonight was one of the most depressing nights I've ever had. The worst was when Amanda calls me crying and I didn't know so I began to yell at her. We haven't talked in almost 2 months so I was angry. She was balling though and talking about how bad she felt. I guess telling her it didn't matter because I loved her wasn't the best choice, but my ( Read more... )

Its two in the morning and I completed all the philosophy work that I needed for tomarrow, but Im dissapointed that I am so tired that I can't absorb it all. The readings are the writings on the existence of God and this concept is the most facinating of all. The points brought up are awesome and I just wish I could concentrate better. I can't ( Read more... )

I have not been on here for a while just cause with school out I have been really busy. I went to my first industry invitational this year and I'm really starting to get into modeling and acting. I got my first offer from an agent a few days ago, but I'm going to hold off until I arive in California in a few weeks. I'm not sure if this is another ( Read more... )

Elle Driver (California Mountain Snake)

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Okay so I went a little crazy last night with thte champaiane and stuff but still it was a fun night. Anyways school is a mess right now just trying to get my schedule worked out, but its been really crazy with my new job too. I found out I can work up to 30 hours a week, so that will help me save up my money. Theres not too much to report which is ( Read more... )

"Every blade of grass has its Angel that bends over it and whipers ... 'grow, grow'" - The Talmud ( Read more... )

"did you find what you were looking for"
"no, no"
"but i found something i thought I'd lost"
"the hope to keep looking." X files.

Its 12:42 and I'm afriad to fall asleep. Have you ever been afraid that if you fall asleep on a bad day that you would be admitting defeat. Its strange really, I know nothing will change for the next 8 hours but its almost like I refuse to give up hope, that somehow,..something will happen that will make living today special, that my day will turn ( Read more... )

Today I woke up late. I couldn't get myself out of bed. Its already 2:45 and I haven't gotton too much done. I hope that the waking up late isn't a precurser to the rest of my day. I need to get so much done, but my thoughts aren't here they are in LA..or how I'm going to get there. I can't figue out how I'm going to get everything done. I'm ( Read more... )