I just tried to commit suicide.  I can't say more than that.  I am alive, but I am a wreck.  I am not healthy.  I need to get out of here.  I need to be at school.  That is where I am safe and happy.  I cannot be away that long in house filled with this much tension and knowing I constantly hurt people doesn't help.  I am not safe here at all. 

I feel so awful.  I tried to help a friend and he lied to me and because of it he ended up getting hurt.  And i can't forgive myself.  I just can't. I feel physically ill with what I've done tonight.  I can't stop shaking.  I feel like I have stabbed in the heart.  I failed Nikki as a friend.  And I failed my parents as a daughter.  My dad tried ( Read more... )

Yeah, I could read a book, but I don't want to, which is a shocker.  I have so many waiting for me and yet they are not calling to me.  I am suffering withdrawl from not talking to Nikki today.  *wails*  This is really pathetic.

4chan failed on yuri too!  G-d dammit!  I want something new already!!!!! *screams in frustration*

4chan is still failing...  G-d dammit!  What is wrong with them.  Nothing hot at all!  Time to look at the yuri...

Okay 4chan,
You suck.  Your really, really suck.  I need my yaoi!!!!  Okay, even yuri will do.  They are both hot.  But they are fail, fail, fail today.

I have not been able to sleep.  Period.  I fail.  This sucks.  I need to kick something's ass.  I just don't know what.  Okay, I think I thought of my someone.  My ex.  Imagining busting his balls for the bad break-up makes me very happy.  Yeah, I can be a vindictive little bitch.  Just try me.  I am pissed enough that I could deck someone.  

/cm failed as well.  4chan is being a real bitch toady.

/u/ failed as well.  What the fuck?  And I so did not need to see Starfire and Raven together.  Nor Scooby Doo or Spongebob yaoi.  Trauma alert! 

/y/ just failed me.  I am pissed.