I guess I'm not

[lost_in_epcot]

I don't know what's up. I feel like I do nothing but work and go to school. It's such a catch22 because I'm so stressed out about working so much, but if I take any time off, I'll be stressed out about getting evicted. I feel like I'm falling more and more behind in my classes...which is slightly fucking RIDICULOUS because I'm only in 4 classes

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You're not what?

[embrassemoi]

I definitely understand the relationship thing, precious, since my own long distance thing has a nightlight at the end of the tunnel, at present. It's the same for me, and I also stress about it every day. You miss the summer in terms of your relationship, well, I miss Paris. Honestly, I assumed that moving closer, it would only change for the better.

Now we're even emotionally long-distance, and I'm here. Ugh.

You need hugs. (You're not what? What's wrong with you and Derwood?)

Re: You're not what?

[lost_in_epcot]

*hugs*

I'm not "fine" after moving away.

I don't know, really...I'd have to explain it another time, I dunno...I don't even want to talk/think about relationships right now haha

Re: You're not what?

[embrassemoi]

I have come to seriously regret 90% of the decisions that I've made from May of last year through now, sadly, primarily on account of one man. If that's why you're not fine, I'm really sorry.

I'm sorry for talking about it if you don't want to, but please don't mess up your education for him. I know that you care about him a lot, but at least he's mentally stable, right? And in that vein, theoretically everything might get better even if you two were to take a break.

Let me know if there's anything I can do. As always, I am adept at solving others' crises, and inept with respect to my own.

Re: You're not what?

[lost_in_epcot]

I won't ruin my education...and maybe you're right about the break thing. I'll have to talk to him and see what's going on before I make that decision. I love you, K...thank you soso much. <3