i'm bored with life. i am bored with school. i am bored with the dorms. i am bored here. but at least i get to go home soon but only for a couple days

i feel like i have lost my best friend. this sucks. i never thought he would just bail on me like he has. and i don't know what to do. i try to talk to him about it and it never works. i wish i could see him but i can't. but more than that i wish we could work it out while i am gone. i wish we could just talk about it. but we can't maybe i thought ( Read more... )

i have the hardest time articulating what i am going to say when i am talking. i can work it out beforehand then say it but in the moment it is really hard to. god dammit

so me leaving has made me realize how much i do love my friends. i have made so many here. and i have met so many people. but it is not the same. cause of like 3 or 4 of my friends and my family. scott and audrey are the ones that i miss the most. but there is a difference. with audrey i know that if we keep talking we will stay friends forever. ( Read more... )

i miss everything so much i wanna go back. i know i am ridiculous but i miss everything scott audrey my friends my life. everything i wanna go back. i wanna be where i was before.

i don't wanna be pissed or mad anymore. this sucks. like i know that you go through the shit for the good times but it seems like the good times and the things that make me happy are fewer and farther between. it is just like ahhh every other second he pisses me off or does something really annoying. god damn. and i try to talk to him but it doesn' ( Read more... )

i don't know who actually reads this and if they are if it really matters. i feel kind of lost right now. it just seems that all my friends have bailed. everyone has bailed. even my closest friends. i feel as if people will always somehow disappoint me. it just seems as if people i thought i knew were a lot different than i thought. it just sucks. ( Read more... )

i can't find peace. for some reason i worry about everything. scott told me i worried to much last night. and i know i do. but i can't help but worry about it. like what happens if he meets someone else. or what happens if he falls out of love with me? what happens if i am too much? what happens if i annoy him and he doesn't want to be with me ( Read more... )

so yea it is 7:20 in the morning and what am i doing? writing an entry. guess why. cause i ate shrooms and i have been up all frickin night. so i have come to a few conclusions. i will never shroom again. one of the worst experiences of my life last night. i tripped fuckin hard core all fuckin night long. it was so crazy. and there was no one there ( Read more... )

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