COMPUTER COMPUTER COMPUTER ( Read more... )

So I moved into Warren today but no computer ( Read more... )

I'm glad you are safe in China. Sounds exciting thus far. Sleep well ( Read more... )

The beginning of the positive. I don't want to wallow and be depressed all the time. And I won't be (or try really hard not to be). So here is the sitch ( Read more... )

i hope it wasn't me that offended you. i love you and i just feel like second to whats important to you. sorry after all this shit that i'm needy. i need to feel like i didn't fuck up ( Read more... )

I'm just sad ( Read more... )

So, I've decided that I won't go out of my way to talk to you anymore. I know you will be gone to China and we will barely talk and I'm sure you want it that way. I'm sorry I've been the ONLY one to call/text/IM you in the last three days. I know you want time to spend with your brother and his friends. I just don't like being disregarded. And I ( Read more... )

After the events of the last three weeks, I'm not sure I will ever be able to trust you. As much as I want to I'm not sure I will. It hurts me. On top of all the other bad shit that has happened throughout the course of this relationship, the straw that broke the camels back and the utter disrespect I've gone through puts the cherry on top on the ( Read more... )

I will never be happy. I will never feel comfortable or secure with anyone. It's not my own insecurities...its not that i think I'm not pretty enough or good enough. fuck that shit. It's the constant lies and fabrications that have molded me to think and react the way i do. Even if someone tries to change. Ive become a creature of that routine. I ( Read more... )

one more thing i realized: even if I wanted to not come home tonight, I really don't have anywhere to go. I don't have real friends here. Jason is not my real friend. He lives this facade of being a friend. a friend that doesn't talk to me and doesn't like to hear me and my feelings. He gets annoyed. He is just attached to his phone and his other ( Read more... )