People are fucked up. End of story.

I haven't changed, but I know I'm not the same.

I have a lot of hopes for next year. I hope to be able to start something new, but not forget the past. I want to have the time to try and figure everything out about my life. Here I feel like there are too many distractions going on. My friends, boyfriend, family. I love them all to death, por supuesto. But I just don't have time to really step ( Read more... )

Nothing else matters ( Read more... )

I don't cut myself anymore. But I might tonight.

I am getting so annoyed and freaked out. Sex. A lot of people my age have had a lot of sex... and it makes me feel like I have be like that too. I have big issues with sex. BIG issues. But I feel so weird thinking about the fact that my boyfriend has had sex a billion times. I freak out about it. And feel so insecure, like he is an expert... ( Read more... )

I am annoyed at a lot of things right now… college financial aid stuff is really stressing me out, school work is getting old, and people are bothering me! People are just getting on my nerves, I feel like I have lost all my tolerance that I once had. Maybe I never had any tolerance… maybe I just repressed everything. Whatever, I am annoyed at ( Read more... )

The weather is perfect outside. Misty, cool, and silent. That is my favorite kind of weather I think. I want to take a walk, and just have time to think about everything.

I feel strange these moments. Sad, but not really.

Prick your finger, it is done
The moon has now eclipsed the sun
The angel has spread his wings
The time has come for better

I feel so weird. Just a little off. I don't want things to change in my life. I feel like things are too good to be true. I feel like I should be content with everything, because things are so great ( Read more... )

Today was so stupid. Mark took some members of my dept. out to SoRo and Hanover to get people to donate money for the play program. He thought that there was no focus, and that people were just goofing off the whole time, and that I wasn’t doing my job by not taking charge. He said that he ‘didn’t hear me say one thing about what we needed to do, ( Read more... )

What a hard time to be living in. I feel like I am not going anywhere with my life. I feel like being stuck in this stupid endless school thing makes me feel immature and young... like this life isn't my own ( Read more... )