i ruined what i had, and now i have nothing.

Sometimes I get into such weird moods, where everything seems to have too much meaning. I get hung up on little things, which mean nothing. And I just sit here, until my head hurts because I have thought everything over too much. And all the while I feel like there is nothing to fear about the upcoming days, nothing to be nervous about, and ( Read more... )

i can't do this anymore. i feel like certain people blow me off, and i feel so unimportant to the ones i love most. i feel so forgotten.

No vivire mas. I hate whats been going on.

my arm stings and hurts from what i just did. i never really thought about why i do that to myself. sometimes i have this need... and most of the time i stop myself. the need has come rarely in the past few months. sometimes i think i am past all of it. but it seems like after the first time, you can't stop. i never thought i would do it. i never ( Read more... )

I have been up all night, and I might sleep all day...

i already do all of the things i never wanted to
i can look into his eyes and see the mess we are in
the mess that i have gotten us into
i have been waiting for so long to fall
cut myself
cut myself until i bleed

i am fine,
really this is nothing that i haven't felt before.

Sometimes I wonder if I have turned my back on certain things because I thought I could never have them.

I am so depressed right now, I feel like everything is going wrong and has been for a while. Why do I always feel so lost and despairing? I want to not be attached to stupid little things. But I am. I am emotionally dependent on people who I push away in order to be able to say that they don't know whats going on. I want everyone to know that I ( Read more... )

i am so cold at the momoent. i am half wrapped in a blanket, and the cloth feels so comforting. i need to be held right now ( Read more... )

Oh my baby, don't cry. Oh my babe just say "good bye." Oh my baby, don't cry. Oh my babe at least we tried.