You're such a beautiful person, and you can't let this get to you. You'll get better. We all feel like dropping it all and saying, "no more" at some point. But we all find strength somewhere, and you'll find yours.
i went through the same exact thing (i believe) last year with this boy i was madly in love with that just happened to be my best friend as well. he suddenly dropped me and became a prick, and as a result i was a mess for a good 3 months afterwards. i was insanely upset all the time, which made me forgetful and irritable, and just horrible all around..
DON'T WORRY!! you are going to find someone incredible that will help you get over it, and in no time as well. from what i gather in the LJ entries that i read, you're a great person, so please do cheer up.
and be optimistic that people aren't asses and haven't stolen any of your stuff.
Oh, sweetheart...*hugs* Please dont be sad. This thing with Annie WILL get better, i promise you. Of course your still going to be upset over her, you really loved her, but no matter how bleak things seem now, it will get easier, even though it may not seem like it right now. That you are so upset shows you are a really good person, who is geniune and sweet and warm enough to truly love someone else, and that is a good thing. Your special, remember that. The best thing i can recommend for you right now is just to get on with life, but dont suppress sad/angery feelings if they are there. It may sound a bit cliched, but you shouldn't be afraid to cry. Its when feelings are bottled up and repressed that they become major problems. Talk to a friend, talk to us, talk to a help line, cry, just dont keep your feelings locked away where they fester and grow. Dont try and force your self to be happy and look to the future strieght away. Remember, there are a lot of people who care about you and want you to be happy.
I dont have anyone to talk about it really appart from you lot online. So thankyou for all your support, and I hope someday ill be able to help you. thankyou again
i seem to have turned into your agony aunt :o)glitter_thingJanuary 27 2005, 02:22:16 UTC
i know exactly where you are coming from...just under two years ago I split up with the love of my life, i was heartbroken and a broken person, i was a mess, i loved him with all my heart and he made me the person I am now. when he left i thought the person I am now would just disappear and i'd crawl back into a hole and die. but now he is my best friend...we spend practically every weekend together, and we still love each other in a special best mates way and most of the time I think its better than when we were together. I never thought I'd love again even when we became best friends, i was still broken...but then I went on hols to New York a few months ago and I met someone, someone who made me realise that I should get over my ex and carry on with my life and rebuild my faith in love...and although we barely see each other (he lives near birmingham) my feelings for him are so strong it scares me...but you can love again and you will love again
Re: i seem to have turned into your agony aunt :o)lost_riotJanuary 27 2005, 11:19:29 UTC
thankyou for your comment. I see Annie everyday at college, its really hard to be around her, i love her so much and just want tell her over and over but I konw it wont help. She just dosnt feel the same. Its great you and your ex are such good friends now. well done you. thankyou again x
Oooer, hopefully someone nice'll save your carbon paper, hopefully *crosses fingers*
Seeing as a don't know you personally, and i don't know Annie i can only really understand from what you've written in here what you feel like, but i honestly think that with time things will get easier, honest. It make take weeks, months or (hopefully not) years, but one way or another im sure it will.
I feel the same about someone, so i half know what you're feeling, and i know how horrible it is to think about someone 24/7 but not be able to have them.
But ill stick to what i said about it getting easier, and Depressive entries is what journals are for so you don't need to apologise for it
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i went through the same exact thing (i believe) last year with this boy i was madly in love with that just happened to be my best friend as well. he suddenly dropped me and became a prick, and as a result i was a mess for a good 3 months afterwards. i was insanely upset all the time, which made me forgetful and irritable, and just horrible all around..
DON'T WORRY!! you are going to find someone incredible that will help you get over it, and in no time as well. from what i gather in the LJ entries that i read, you're a great person, so please do cheer up.
and be optimistic that people aren't asses and haven't stolen any of your stuff.
good luck - A
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Remember, there are a lot of people who care about you and want you to be happy.
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i know exactly where you are coming from...just under two years ago I split up with the love of my life, i was heartbroken and a broken person, i was a mess, i loved him with all my heart and he made me the person I am now. when he left i thought the person I am now would just disappear and i'd crawl back into a hole and die.
but now he is my best friend...we spend practically every weekend together, and we still love each other in a special best mates way and most of the time I think its better than when we were together.
I never thought I'd love again even when we became best friends, i was still broken...but then I went on hols to New York a few months ago and I met someone, someone who made me realise that I should get over my ex and carry on with my life and rebuild my faith in love...and although we barely see each other (he lives near birmingham) my feelings for him are so strong it scares me...but you can love again and you will love again
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Seeing as a don't know you personally, and i don't know Annie i can only really understand from what you've written in here what you feel like, but i honestly think that with time things will get easier, honest. It make take weeks, months or (hopefully not) years, but one way or another im sure it will.
I feel the same about someone, so i half know what you're feeling, and i know how horrible it is to think about someone 24/7 but not be able to have them.
But ill stick to what i said about it getting easier, and Depressive entries is what journals are for so you don't need to apologise for it
Helen x
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