Me, Josh, and Amanda are all friends now. So everythings good!!! Now I'm watching Lost because Josh claims I'll get addicted to it.

Hell yeah for good times to come!

I haven't really exsisted the past few days. Really since Sunday, I don't do much. I'd honestly be dead right now if it wasn't for my curosity and need to learn as much as possible. If I hadn't of found so many movies, and songs to listen to, and stuff to read, I would of killed myself already. I keep telling myself tomorrow I will, but when ( Read more... )

I still really really want to move to Japan. I keep listening to jrock bands. I feel almost destined to go there, that or stay here and be a cop. But all my life I keep feeling like Japans calling me to go there. I don't know. But I have to go there somehow, or else I'll probably end up killing myself sticking around here.

I saw an awesome show, butch walker. But I felt down the whole time. I keep dreaming of Josh, and Amy leaving me. Then my dad was an asshole all because I asked him to turn down the music. Then I saw how Amy took me off her top 8, which normally wouldn't bother me, but I feel like she's erasing me from her life. As if what we had was nothing ( Read more... )

Was fucking awesome!

"In this world, there are
no such things as
absolutes or certainties."

Hmm I just don't know anymore.

"Don’t save me, don’t save me
Cuz I don’t care
Don’t save me, don’t save me
Cuz I don’t care"

One thing that still doesn't make any sense to me about Amy dumping me is ( Read more... )

I dreamed me, Josh, and Justin V. were hanging out like old times at my house. Nice dream, ruined by a phone call. Funny part was in my dream I told them "hold on guys I have to get the phone ( Read more... )

Alot of this came to light with a brief discussion about it with my friend Ryan ( Read more... )

My eyes won't dry out, and it's getting really hard to breathe ( Read more... )