god i feel so useless today. i havent done anything productive since i came home a month ago. i feel like im going backwards. someone get me a job, my money is diminishing and i sit on the couch alot. though, i have been going to the gym. not enough. i ate alot today. i need to buy film. take pictures. draw something. im building myself up and not ( Read more... )

i really really really wish you were here.
i miss you so much.

i wish he'd come home so things wouldnt be like this anymore. im not sure aobut things anymore. not sure about myself. i do things i dont imagine myself doing. i do things im not sure are wrong or right, even though "technically" they arent wrong really. i feel like im stuck between decisions which consequences that bring me in circles. nothing is ( Read more... )

so...

i think it was dane cook that once said:
"certain sounds make me want to punch a baby."

can someone say 'american idol'

america is fucking annoying.

ive always hated knowing when really close friends are completely miserable, but this is the first time i know im part of the reason why.

today i went to the gym. i signed up at golds gym for the summer (3 months) and met with a trainer today. so i have a goal of losing 28-30lbs by the end of august. and its reasonable so i am pretty sure i can do it. i need to make changes about how i feel about myself. plus i joined an 18+ softball team. i am really sore from practice yesterday in ( Read more... )

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY,
COME BACK ANOTHER DAY,
LITTLE STACEY WANTS TO PLAY!

so im back in lawtown for the summer. i have two weeks off of work so its hangout, beach, hangout, party-time! the upstairs apartment is almost done. and my town in underwater. cool. the sun needs to come out forever now. and i need to hang out with everyone i havent seen.

love.love.love.love

i just got the new ducky boy's cd and let me say, they never seize to amaze me.

ahhh yes!