i think my drawing has gotten worse. school is supposed to make you better, and teach you knew things, and yes ive learned but i feel like theyre continously pushing me into a little box. the farther and farther they push me into that box, probably labeled as "commercial art" or in my words "conformity" the more blank my mind seems to get, and the ( Read more... )

finally, im free. im rid of him. he finally has seemed to give up trying to talk to me, and has accepted the fact that im gone for good. i feel so liberated.....so happy. i never realized just how much all the bullshit was affecting me untill it was finally over. everything seems so much better now, im smiling almost all the time....my work is ( Read more... )

i cant stand it....at first i was so happy to be ride of him...im sick of the bullshit, sick of the hurt, sick of him never treating me like someone special or important to him....just more like his property...im so sick of him never taking responsibility for anything, and being completey unindependent....and making little to no effort to be. im ( Read more... )

i think i really am nieve. like...seriously nieve. i dont realize wut ppl are obviously trying to do cause in to nieve. and maybe if i did then i would be able to watch out for my self better....idk...

korny song yea but idk it popped into my head when i started thinking bout it. im so mixed up right now...everything is just so surreal...bobert asked me out during catillion last week...it was really sweet...but idk i woulda rather waited till summer when i would actually be here...but then when i was thinkin bout it b4 it happened i realized that ( Read more... )

i cant remember being jelous of sum1 ever b4 in my life...but i gotta admit i am jelous of vikki... shes just 1 of those perfect ppl, shes pretty, talented, and poeticly creative. and when i heard bout wut was going on with her and rob, i couldnt help but wanna strangle her everytime i saw her ( Read more... )

so scared, so emotionally naked, my souls on fire, and i like it...cause this is love ( Read more... )

rip my heart out
smash it on the floor
replace it with ashes
so it wont sing anymore
fill my lungs with water
if i try to breath

i realized i smoke because im alone, i cut because im alone, i have done everything that i have done because i am so alone. nobody cares about me. nobody could give 2 shits. if i moved, everyone would be happy ( Read more... )

i just cant figure myself out anymore. i have no idea wut im thinking, wut im feeling, i just dont know. i have shut out emotions for so fucken long, its really hard to feel anything anymore but a spare few things that have always fought their way in ( Read more... )