so I got an Email from Clare today. she is having fun in Japan and says that everything is great. but the letter felt a little empty and distant. like she was trying to say something without writing it. she asked me if I had been Skydiving yet, but I remember telling her there was no place to do it here. she is talking to someone and she knows ( Read more... )

waiting for a sign that my prayer has been heard. I know I might have to wait a while for it but I know He is listening and He will move. I have sat in darkness long enough, now I am standing on the edge of a vally getting ready to walk in to be molded by His hands.

so it's been a couple of months since she left. I got two emails and I sent two replies. the second reply ended everything for good I guess. I was angry at the way I was just being brushed off and I pushed her away. amid all the promises and all the feelings and emotions I have yet to feel anything but numbness. it is burning a whole in me. she is ( Read more... )

well as the title says another year of life is over and another year of death beings. seems kind of morbid, maybe that's cause I am in a morbid mood these past few weeks. I still miss her, it's been hard. but it's my pace I walk this path at, not everyone else's. so all those who want to complain shove it. it's none of your damn business. anyways ( Read more... )

yeah it the same old thing. I feel numb and I feel hopeless. everything seems to be falling apart in a mystical way as my time here begins the second half to signal the impending close of a legacy that was started 22 years ago. translation when I leave in october I won't be coming back. I have spent the last two weeks hiding and I have no plan to ( Read more... )

it hurts really bad right now. tonight feels like its one of the worst nights already. everything I see, hear and even smell reminds me of her. she is gone and I need to forget but it's not happening. I can't let go. I know I need to but I just can't, and it is killing me. so many things I wanted to say and I never got a chance to. so many things I ( Read more... )

Yeah I just finished watching the movie called Kids in America. It’s about a diverse group of High school students who band together to as the tag line says "Peacefully stick it to their overbearing principal." I can't help but ask one question after I have been inspired by this movie. What is passion? Watching this group of kids who were inspired ( Read more... )

there is just something about Salad fingers that is just well the only word to describe it is "Special".

http://www.fat-pie.com/salad.htm

so yesterday I felt better and by the end of the day my knee stopped swelling and I could walk. I wake up today and my knee isn't that bad but I feel like a wreck. my throat hurts, I am coughing. I feel like I have a not in my throat whenever I swollow that hurts. man this sucks. being sick in Korea sucks. I need to get better soon.

my knee is swollen and I am sitting her watching tv. bored and thinking but I can barely bend it today. it hurts and I must say I am going to see a chinese DR on monday. I hope this fixes it. the last DR rubbed his hand over my bruise and said it would be fine. well guess what it got worse. who knows maybe it will be better tomorrow.