Hope.
Lost.
Faith.
Trust.
Broken.
Alone.
Envious.
Angry.
over it.
not over you.
sauna.
lies.
caution.
sleeze.
No more.
games.
lust.
flirting.
laughter.
high.
crying.
poems.
fears.
prayers.
letting go.
values.
sex.
conversations.
missing.
wishing.
feeling like an idiot.
being one.
hurting.
smiling.
rockstars.
way too many.
disneyland.
Pirates.
work.
money.
cell phone.
faking it.
arguments.
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summer is amazing already...
Lauren: Vegas was out of control but SO fun.
you are amazing.
" Once you go black, you never go back"
" Buddy system"
" Can I have one? So uh, where you ladies from...oh yea me too!"
" I need two gold fish"
" Oh, it's been eight minutes...We need to call Joon!!"
" I love you....BFF!!!"
" Im ashamed my last name is on this bottle ( Read more... )

i love summer.
things get so much more interesting.
maybe its because people have so much more energy to give during the summer?
ha ha.
i dont know.
let the games begin....
<3

fuck my life.

okay so tonight was the senior award thing.
yea, didnt get a letter.
which i thought was weird.
i mean im not dumb.
i get good grades.
but i was liek yea, whatever
so i just fail.
but then come to find out...
i got two.
and i obviously just didnt get my letter.
fuck me.

oh well...
bummes me out though...
i missed my senior awards : (

i dont want ( Read more... )

I dont know how to stop what im feeling right now.
so many emotions i am going to fucking burst.
im angry.
im sad.
im hopeless.
im hopeful.
im happy.
im a slut.
im alone.
i want to be left alone.
but its the last thing i want.
i want you.
i want this all to be fucking fake.
i want to pinch myself so i wake up from
this nightmare thats become my ( Read more... )

So content right now : )

its been forever since i updated this thing ( Read more... )

I'm so over it. I will not wait around for you. If you can't see what your missing then thats your fault. because i have a lot to offer you and one day I won't be sitting here waiting around anymore. And that day is today.

I hate being vulnerable.
How is it one look can melt all the anger I have tried to develop over the weekend(because anger is better than pain)and turn it back into pain.
Please just twist the knife you stabbed me with?

..........*SIGH*..........
Why do boys have to be so heartless?