sometimes life gets to a place where you are just sitting there wondering what will come next and that is where i am. i seem to be beyond the past for the most part but not yet on to the future. it is the place of waiting and wondering what will be next. i now wonder how much of our lives we spend in a fake and pretend world sheltering us from all ( Read more... )

sometimes the past has a way of never leaving. is it because that part of our past is not finished and more is to come or that we just cant let go. seeing makes me think of what was and makes me wonder what will be. all seems lost at times only because we are on the edge of the truth.

sometimes it seems easier to run or quit when things get difficult but what do we gain. by never facing the truth we don't learn to know ourself or what we can accomplish. maybe when things are the most difficult is when we can learn the most about ourselves and see what we need to change in us.

i only seem to cause the pain that i want to take away. i make everyone wither and die that i contact when all i want is to help. i just hope that the hurt can mend their sores.

today i feel surprisingly good. i feel like maybe things will become worth while again in life. like maybe the silver lining of the clouds are beginning to show. i hope that things will get better and that what ever needs to be will be. i want what should be not what is or even what i think i want but what should be. no one is the same anymore ( Read more... )

what is love. something people search for all their life and often die still asking the question. people in this world have taken it to mean a wide variety of things often far from the truth. so what is love ( Read more... )

I dream about how it's going to end ( Read more... )

everything seems so distant. it is like i am watching my life lived in the distance and yet i know i can direct it. i wonder what i am missing. i know their must be something that i am missing not seeing that i must. whatever it is i hope will come to me. it seems that i want to go on for some reason now but i am not sure of the reason why. will ( Read more... )

why does life have to suck so much i just want to find happiness. i can ever seem to find is pain and suffering. i look for death but find only the hate i hide inside. when will the sunrise in my heart full of anger. never. i wonder if that is the case sometimes. well i guess i can just hope that something will change and times will improve.

i don't know where but i know that the pain will eventually have to leave me and go their. i don't want to push on to many days of my life but something with in makes me any ways. i want to run from this lonely hell that we call the world but seem to be chained to something. something that i don't want to remember so i just don't turn around and ( Read more... )