I'm not really sure why today hit me like it did. Lost. That pretty much sums it all up. Once again I have no idea what I'm doing anymore. When did life get so screwed up? I used to have it all figured out...now not so much. I'm not sure how to even begin getting back on track. I keep thinking I know exactly what I want, yet when its here I keep ( Read more... )

I thought it might be a good idea to take a few steps back and glimpse into the past. Perhaps looking at what has already been might change the path of what could be. Everyone says hind sight is 20/20, I guess I was just testing out that theory. Whether or not I believe it, only time will truly tell. 5 or 6 years really isn't enough time to sit ( Read more... )

"The hardest thing in this world is to live in it. Be brave. Live. For me." Never has this ever rung as true. I have fully begun to understand that life is confusing, complicated, and all around strange. Things never go the way you plan. Nothing is ever 100% guaranteed. And how you feel one day can complete change by the next. I can sit back, wish ( Read more... )

I keep thinking of ways to keep you entertained. Memories continue to haunt me now more than ever. I  can feel you slipping through my fingers as if I ever had a firm grip to begin with. I've got my secret count down and can't help but focus on every second. Clock ticking, seconds dragging, until I can have you just one more time. Can I be ( Read more... )

This week has been the week from hell. Who knew a flat tire could cause such a headache.  Finally got my tire changed out tonite, but my battery is now dead and Mitch's truck is now fucked up. Lovely simply lovely. I'm supposed to go to Chicago tomorrow to visit Dany and go shopping for my trip. ugh with the way things are going I dont even know if ( Read more... )

So the car is still not fixed. Now not only is there the tire issue, the battery is dead! God I hate my freaking car! Seriously this is the last time I will ever take Stacy with me to get a car. She is bad luck in my book. :(  I should really be studying right now. I have an accounting test tomorrow and I'm not ready for it. I have been trying to ( Read more... )

Today already sucks. I'm going to work when something just doesn't feel right with my car. I pull over to get gas and that's when I notice my back passenger side tire is blown. I first try calling my boss to let her know what is going on, then I call Mitch. I know I woke him up and I'm pretty sure he is annoyed with me for it. The first thing he ( Read more... )

Restlessness. I hate this feeling. It makes it extremely hard to get anything down in words. Today has been uneventful. For some reason the fact that I am alone today has been wearing down on my heavily . Everything just feels so empty. Silence is killing me.  My only companion today has been my thoughts. My mind just keeps wandering. I wonder what ( Read more... )

I never thought I would be one of those people who could be torn in two. Wanting two separate things at once leaves me drained and more than anything confused. I don't know where all my confidence has gone. I don't want to fall back into the girl who is afraid of the world. I used to take it head one, knowing exactly what I want and how to get it. ( Read more... )