Gonna go have a fucking blast in the carribean with my old friend and amigo Doogie.Will be in the carribean for new years.Im back to drinking sociaiabily.Have done acouple of norcos lately,no more xanax that crap just puts me to sleep anyway.Iam doing really well in thearpy with Dr.C and Dr.Nathan.Also kicking ass in karate class gonna test for my ( Read more... )

Im buying amotrcycle tomorrow for me and my family.Im feeling better since Im off Xanax and NORco.I just want a zen high.

I have been having a rough ride.YET im back in therapy taking it as a new experience.Found a new drug that works for me being lamictal.Kicking the xanax and norco[high grade vikes]is a fucking bitch.THINK I'll stick to a occasinal smoke and drink.Try d to fire up my dirt bike today-didnt work out tomorrow is another day to play.Going to check out ( Read more... )

I was evaluted by apsychitrist to see what level of care I need.HHe asked if i was inarapid cycle Ilied and told him no.The last thing I need right now is to be committed to inpatient therapyy.Like most of the too proud to be a docctor shrinks Ive run into he had astick of over confidince and seriousssness up his ass.TThe funny dark skinned man ( Read more... )

A sharp pain in the back itss really nothing.Opiates bring pleasent dreams Yet lately I cherish the dream day smokes in the night doing what I want accomplihing so much of nothing ness.My art studio up aand running ,tennis playing often, embracing bushido with enllightenment,jjournals jogging.these creative empty solid dreams in nothingness make my ( Read more... )

I wake up at 44in the morning before the dawn or I care.AA differnt world exxists in the middle of the night aaa Lonelier pllace yet more peaceful time,It feels as though Im in a chocolate cherry space egg drifting in the cover of darkness,caressing the night.I write poetry and play jazz with montgomery cliff on the sax,i soke in my smoke ligting ( Read more... )

Theres a small dark coner of my mind where paronia runs rampent,where murphys law rules every day,where hate,anger,fear,and sloth are a common source to exsitence.YYet the rest of my mind is bohistvia bright fiighting off the darrrrkness with euphoric zen and practicaal commonsense. Fireflys in the mind lead me out of the darkness-seagulls of ( Read more... )

I rember a time of being young when nothing was unsacred everything was pure and smelt like lavender.A young boy on a beach where pirates were real and I was nieve enough to belife that I would always live this enchanted gypsy life;I would always be with seagulls of smiles,the maagic goto would always be my friend.Yet that was a white golden time ( Read more... )

Round her I stay up late,round here I feel just alittle tight.It seems around here I got tobe bright,flying under the radar,filling in the sky wit and jet blues take off - round here, I like to see the sunlight.

Gotta let go-the past is justt a refleection the future todays toes all thhats real is absurdly blissful a euphoric reaction on a downward slope.KKeep on slliding yeahh keep on sliding keeep on letting go.The wolfs are on my tail the doctor wont let me bail and now Im uup agaisnt the ropes.Jussst gotta keep on sliding keep onsliddding-hit im ( Read more... )