So i cant help but think what is wrong with me. And why do i always think there is something wrong with me. In the past couple of weeks i have felt more manipulated and gullible then ever. Are people as cynical as i think or am i the cynical one? Everything seem to have a double meaning to me. I dont know who is real and who isnt and even if its ( Read more... )

hahahah so i can believe how obsessive ive become over guys. I get my hopes up so fast just to have them down. Last night i hungout with jesse and we cuddled and slept together but all we did was sleep. He didnt try to kiss me or anything, which was kinda disappointing but i dont know if i even wanted to. Then this morning we jsut cuddled all ( Read more... )

I hate all this self pity im doing to myself. i know my situations arent that bad and im probably over reacting but i really dont give a shit anymore. i just dont know what to do. I feel like i hvae no value and theres no one here for me. so last week was fucking great and now every point of that is the opposite. Tyler now doesnt talk to me and ( Read more... )

for the past couple of weeks, my life has been exactly what i wanted. I have everything i wanted, car, laptop, prom dress, my vans, on varsity tennis, and last night i went on a date with tyler. :) it was exactly what i thought would happen tehehe actually even better. I was freaking out before the movies because he was texting back wiht crappy ( Read more... )

oh woooww, so life is going pretty great! everything is fallin into place, and this might be a great ending of junior year? hahah so tonight i found out tyler likes me, TYLER, i had a mini crush on him last year and this year i was like hes a guy i never would have a chance for but tonight we were texting. and he man'd up and told me he likes me ( Read more... )

hm so the happiest part is tennis, i think i might have made 3rd doubles varsity! hehehe idk what happend but i improved in like a week lmfao. On thursday i was having a really good day and just didnt care what happend and i ended up winning and doing pretty good with others. Lauren is very good, all her hits always go over. i dont work well with ( Read more... )

I think too much and say too much. Who is wrong is too stubbon to admit it. I know my dad will never change and he will do the thing he do. But if he is going to say things that piss me off i am gong to tell him. I feel as if something is wrong with me. Maybe i need a therpist. I feel weak and misunderstood. I have no one by my sid but i hate to ( Read more... )

hahaha happy, idkkk tomrs friday i DONT have work for once so i think me and sydey are gona hit up the mall and then go chill at brians after, i was thinking of hanging out wiht ryan :) its gonna be a good day ( Read more... )

got shit load of homework blah blah ( Read more... )

i think too much
get put down too much
sleep too little
and dont have enough fun.

time to change