i am finding out that maybe i was wrong ( Read more... )

this world is imperfect and so am I.

In me, deep in my being, I have the desire for perfect. Thats why it hurts so bad, to be imperfect and to live in such an imperfect world. It hurts because of this inate desire for its opposite, the Devine Presence.

I want so badly for perfect, to be and to have

i am sick of this. i am tired of this constant frustration. no body cares about these people. no body cares about God. Conviction is cast aside for convenience. So many people are so lonely, and they are so attracted to a smile. throw a stone and you will hit someone alone. people dont become christian or athiest because either one is ( Read more... )

work on

• pride
• hypocracy
• cynicism
• addiction
• selfishness

its 4 in the morning, and i most certainly dont feel like going to bed. i am listening to some mellow piano, crusing around google trying to find some cool pics. but to go to bed would be to turn my pack on the moment, to trade in the now for when i awake. i like my now, ill hold on to it for just a few more moments before i drift into the

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"What Sarah Said ( Read more... )

durin this merry time of celebration i would like to take the moment to say something

there are places in the world where right now is not christmas... let us not forget the heathen eastern europeans who celebrate the birth of Christ on january 6th

that is all

if anyone knows Gilbert Castillo or has ever met him, you need to check out this video.

http://college.break.com/articles/teatherball.html

or even if you dont know him, its pretty funny

another night of not wanting sleep. There are few feelings i hate more than waking up; its either waking up to early by an alarm and wanting to shoot myself, or its sleeping in real late and just rolling around bored just wishing i could go back to sleep. But by far the worst part of waking up is the total lack of... life.

im gunna stay up late