Did I lose all my friends? Does anyone want to hang out with me anymore?Or did I ruin it all? I know I know emo and depressing. I get it. But really did I screw it all up? I know I've made a lot of mistakes but does that mean no one wants to be around me anymore? I'm trying to fix things but I don't know how. But I also don't know if anyone even ( Read more... )

Another failure is in my midst . Shouldn't be surprised but doesn't mean I'm not hurt.

It's happened again. I'm in a place so low its hard to even see the sun anymore. Between friends family and lovers I've fallen. I'm not wanted nor seen. But as usual I think I've put myself here. It's so hard to decide what I want and what i should do. I feel like the odds work against me. I work against me. Sometimes it's so hard to try without ( Read more... )

I'm fairly certain that this may be the worst month of my life. It sounds ridiculously dramatic doesn't it? I guess but I'm severely serious about it. If we could go back in time - way back mind you and just erase some shit I think it would be for the best. Different roads and such. Hell even if we could go back to a few weeks and erase that I'm ( Read more... )

I love feeling like I'm not even part of something that's occurring in my own room. Really it's a fabulous feeling. That and my boyfriend ignoring what im saying and dismissing me then adding mockery to it. At least he doesn't become an ass when people are around or anything. I can tell you now I don't like that this happens. I'm so over it already

Some pieces fall into certain places and others need to be put in the place we think they belong, yet even then we could be wrong. Some colors look similar and yet the shapes aren't quite right ( Read more... )

My heads not in the game. Theres a part of me that wants to be sooooo focused to just blow my work out of the water and then there is part of me that just wants to look at the teacher and be like "fuck no, you do it, I'm not. And while you're at it mkae it good. You know what you want I don't your better I'll just read your shit and learn from that ( Read more... )

Changes are blowing through my life like the wind through the leaves.
There is a lot that needs to be addressed by me and I'm glad that I'll be making these decisions.
But - you know, things are strange too.
And I'm in a word of thought and lethargic attitudes.
Weirdness - total weirdness.

Moving on with my life comes now.
Here's hoping this goes

The fear makes me sway ( Read more... )

I just want to fucking throw the towel in ( Read more... )