1. i miss you so much
2. i hate myself for everything that has happened
3. i am african american

i do enough damage to my own personal property alone but damn. some people have just no respect for other people's belongings ( Read more... )

is not always sexy, when you lay it on too thick.
you're taking it to an extreme here, buddy.
i'm not your baby, dont even call me babe. i don't like to be hit on. im not easy. i won't go for just ANYone. i have to be interested in someone and stimulated and smitten. and you don't do it for me baby

ugh

some boys make me wanna barf.

i'm going to kick my ass and run 5 miles and throw up everything i have eaten today and feel good.

because you make me feel ugly.

i was a dreamer before you went and let me down.

and that is a lie.

i tried to find a picture as beautiful as the sunset i dreamt about but i couldn't find anything. it made me feel really empty and like i wanted to cry. i want to have that dream again. i want to get out of this shit town.
i can only se out of one eye

that is all for now

ROXANNE

because i don't care if it's wrong, or if it's right

there is so much that i want to say, so calm down calm down breathe in breathe out.
hokay. so

this is a much needed entry. not saying that i have absolutely no one to talk to, but... anyway.

FIRST,
i really do not want or mean to sound like a bitch, but really.. if i wanna be bitchy, it's my ( Read more... )

is soooo much different for me. In a good way. I am learning that it is more than ok to be able to just chill at home by myself. I don't need a man in my life. Even though the way that the break-up went down hurt me a lot, it definitely has made me a stronger woman. And now I know that I can and should be independent and want to better my life, and ( Read more... )

I really don't like getting small things stuck in between my toes when I walk around barefoot.

also

in 4 days, I will be 20.

=D

I have so many thoughts swimming through my head that I am feeling dizzy. I wouldn't even know how to put these things into words. I ca't even catch my breath. I want to be happy, I am happy, then I am sad. I know that everything will work out, eventually. I want to be at the place where everything is ok, and I wanna get there fast, even though I  ( Read more... )

you know when you are in those really bad moods, and you don't want anyone to touch you or talk to you, and even if someone looks at you, you wanna beat the crap out of them?
that's what's up.
and this would be 1097823 times more bearable, if i lived alone, or even with a friend. not with 4 other people. FAMILY MEMBERS.
ugh. family, i love you but i ( Read more... )