and i will exit my life as a "teenager."

and coming soon-

- PARTY!
- vacation!
- and lots more parties!

<3

parties
parties
parties
parties.

this summer is gonna be the shit.
that's a promise.

i really have nothing to say, other than i am happy. and very much looking forward to these up-coming months.
i realize there are other things i should be trying to focus on, seeing as how i will be 20

soon. omfg.

but for now, all i wanna do is have some fun. and enjoy my ( Read more... )

they pretty much cancel each other out.
and prove that i am nothing more than a coward. and need a lot of help before i can call myself strong.
for 2 years i have relied on some one else,

for everything

for making my decisions
for holding my hand through everything
i put my heart in the hands of someone who didn't want to treat it right.
i relied on ( Read more... )

i'd do anything, just to make you happy, hear you tell me that you're proud of me.

i miss being independent and strong.
i miss being happy and not having any drama in my life.
i miss being able to sit by my self, and being on my own and being okay with it.

i want to be strong again.

it's just a thought.

more days until i

am 20!

<3

no matter how hard i try to avoid it, my teenage years are running out. if you didn't know,

i will be twenty soon!!!! in 21 days.

that is crazy! what the fuck am i going to do with my life?
i have been thinking and dreaming. about what i will do now. what can i do?
your dreams will only take you as far as you're willing to work,
and i am the worst when ( Read more... )

since I have written anything in this journal.
that is a lot of catching up to do.

Today I slept. For the first time in a long time, I slept ( Read more... )

When my life finally seemed to be moving forward perfectly.. BAM ( Read more... )