what to do..what to do?

im so lost...idk what i feel..or who i feel it for... oh well...idk..im just going to lock myself up in my room..and just stay there..that will give them both time to move on...GOD! but i dont want to hurt either one of them...GOD FUCKING DAMN SONS OF BITCHES!! wtf is fucking wrong with me. god...

im so sick of feeling like im 2nd in everything! god..just fucking god...

the world seems so much better when im in your arms...but what should i do with my shadow? the one that followa me that one that says we are meant to be...what should i do with him...so that he wont be hurt?...how should i tell him that we were never meant to be...that we should have never even tried! Im sick of this...really sick of it. i cant ( Read more... )

is life a lie?...or do we all just not see what is right infront of us?

should i believe what i am told? Or what he tells me? Sigh this all is so gay!! i should have never did what i had done. and i wouldnt be going through this right now!...grrr...wtf am i suppose to believe. what am i going to do?

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Become a slut.

Get your resolution here

HAH..accroding to alot of ppl..i already have done this...grrr why do i always get things like this ( Read more... )

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i have nothing to say..i thought i did..but i jsut cant find the words...and its odd...b/c today..i was so happy...but now..theres something wrong...and idk what it is...grrr...life is hell..and i hate it...

how does he do..what he does?....

... what more do i have to say..my mouth..is shut!!!

will be get together ( Read more... )

ok well...yeah...leahs in the hospital...and i havent heard anything about how she is..and no one will try to tell me its ok..so im doing anything and everything to get my mind off of it...but the problem about doing that..is i do the wrong things to get my mind off of it...i talk to cory..i mean he does absolutely nothing wrong..and yet...im so ( Read more... )