i just don't get it. i feel so happy, and then i sit down and all of a sudden i'm sad. i feel so alone. i really do. i had a dream about someone last night. i've been dreaming about him a lot lately. i don't know why. i never imagined i'd miss him this much. they're really strange dreams. i keep having dreams about us being together. it's strange. ( Read more... )

a lot of things ( Read more... )

Okay. So I was reading my livejournal and realzing how emo it is/was. It's funny, like most people think I'm a pretty happy person. Now I am though. I've overcome a lot of stuff in the last year (it's been a year since I've posted), and some stuff I feel like I'll never get over. So I guess I should just give an update on topics earlier posted on, ( Read more... )

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your lj and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

i just want it to be over. all of it. maybe he should've shot me last year...i know he wasn't going to. but maybe he should have. maybe i would've been better. maybe everyone would be better. he was right...i shouldn't be here...i should be gone....i just want it all to go away. i want to not wake up tommorow. that's it. just go to sleep tonight ( Read more... )

wow. i haven't updated in FOREVER!!! i was just looking at my lj and someone commented on the last entry that i posted. it was weird, cause it didn't sound all angry like i would've expected. mabye a year and a half later things have finally calmed down...(but i don't want to jinx it). my life is going pretty well. i haven't fallen off the face of ( Read more... )

Oh man. I'm watching Bye, Bye Birdie. It's bringnig back CRAZY memories. Haha. I really should go to bed. But I want to hear how Put on a Happy Face is really supposed to sound. Haha. It's so nice hearing it, and understand the whole show!! Woo hoo! Haha. That's all. I'm out!

So Sunday started off kind of bad. I had set my alarm for 6:15 so I could take a nice shower, get all ready and then start waking people up at 7:15, but I didn’t wake up till 6:52. So I was like “OMG!” I jumped out of bed, ran into the shower, and got dressed quickly. I woke David up for the first time at 7:15, he just kinda looked at me, and then ( Read more... )

So Saturday I woke up around a quarter to six, I think. It took me a while to realize there was a clock in the room, so I laid in bed then decided to see if anyone was up. They weren’t what a surprise. So I went back to reading. And then people started getting up so I went out. We just hung around and whispered, cause people were still sleeping. ( Read more... )

Friday we got to the airport an hour early. Then, midbar showed up late, but thinking that they were responsible, I thought that they were meeting at the gate the time they told me, so I was about to go up to the gate and then I ran into Kevin. So that was good. So we waited for everyone else to check-in and then we went through security. The plane ( Read more... )