so I have to work thanksgiving (12-7pm). I usually get wed off which i did have tomorrow off. i was gonna go home tonight and do some shopping with my mom. then on wed Garrett was gonna come back to worcester with me for the weekend. i told him he should spend it with his family but he insisted that he didnt want me to be alone. he was gonna cook ( Read more... )

I thought since i had nothin better to do that i would write in this. i havent updated LJ for awhile cause i really didnt feel the need to. or maybe its cause i see a therapist so i dont really have the need to type in this. so where should i start? i dont even remember the last time i updated. hmmm ( Read more... )

gawd damn it! so the Dropkicks are finally playing a show here is worcester at the palladium which is like 5 mins from my place. oh and i found out that they are eating at Coney Island before (i worked there 2 years ago and thats how i met the band). yea but the problem is the date. Oct 21st!!! out of the whole damn month of october they pick the ( Read more... )

im fucked. time to face the music. i just wanna go home :(

drinking by urself = pathetic ( Read more... )

im trying not to be so hopeless. Im tryin not to be so depressed and sad. im fuckin exhausted. i sleep but it doesnt refresh me. i sleep but i dont relax. i have tomorrow and wed off. i was so excited cause i was gonna clean this apartment up and actually try to relax after. i was gonna do most of the cleaning tonight after work and then tomorrow ( Read more... )

where to even start? im very annoyed at shit thats goin on right now. im not even goin to go through the whole story cause i dont feel like it. alot of u already know whats goin on anyways by reading Shane's LJ.....although he tends to exaggerate abit and of course makes me look like the bad guy. im sorry that i still have feelings for my ex ( Read more... )

im really getting sick of all the shit talking. get over it! my god! its my life. so mind ur own business. i never lied. i meant everything i said, atleast i thought i did then when i said it. ur saying shit to try to make me feel bad but all ur doin is pissing me off even more. i might not show it but i do feel bad. i feel horrible for how ( Read more... )

there are many things i have realized in the past couple of days. i have no idea where to start. so i notice that when something bothers me i try to push it aside....well actually i only push aside sad emotional things. i hate crying infront of people im not close to. it makes me feel vulnerable. even the people i am close to like friends and even ( Read more... )

well i realized that i had tons of pictures on my camera that i never uploaded onto my camera. i also took lots of pix this weekend. Sat night i went home and hung out with Shawna (sadly i didnt have my camera). slept at my parent's. Petie was happy. Sunday i went shopping with my mom all afternoon. we also went out to eat at Margaritas which is so ( Read more... )