you know what's wrong with all these old people that move to florida. they do it just so their families will suffer when florida has it's hurricanes and we can't get through to see if our grandparents are still alive for days and days. that is so selfish! old people are always only thinking of themselves, don't they know it's all about me and my

I'M GOING BACK TO SCHOOL. I'M BEING FUTURISTIC. I'M COMING BACK TO ME. I HAVE A MOTHER FUCKING TEN YEAR PLAN!!! I'M CHANGING AGAIN. I'LL SEE YOU WHEN I SEE ME AGAIN. REMEMBER?

There isn't any meaningfullness in any of this. It's all just time passing. If I'm ever asked to explain myself I'll just say I miss you. That's all I've ever done and it's the only thing that opens the night into daylight as the hours pass into years and centuries approach and drift by, slowly relaxing into the horizon of my life gone by, until it ( Read more... )

saw an old friend the other night. first thoughts: he looks the same. gives me a bit of a grin to tell the truth at what his first thoughts must of been once he knew he'd been recognised. he probably came up and hugged me in the good spirit of routine, cuz it surely wasn't heartfelt. it must of been that breath we both fell short on when neither ( Read more... )

the other night instead of asking if lyndon was coming to dinner, tracy asked if adrian was coming to dinner. it just slipped out. i beamed. for a second i considered whether he might show up. how it would feel. at first i'd be a little reserved. nervous. figity like on a first blind date ever. once i got comfortable looking at him, i'd probably ( Read more... )

so yes my cervix fell down, and so did my uterus and whatever else. but they aren't gonna fix it, and here's why. because it's huge cysts on my ovaries that are causing all the pressure on everything. so i get a temporary fix, just something to go inside and hold everything up until they figure out what's up with the cysts. wish me no cancer. wish ( Read more... )

my insides fell down. fell down fell in falling out. my uterus fell down and is pulling everything else down with it. i've ignored it ever since my daughter was born. i pretended it was other things. i made excuses for why i wasn't going to go to the doctor. and it got bigger and bigger, worse and worse, until now my vagina has collapsed by the ( Read more... )

it's my birthday saturday! the big 2-5. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENNIS AND TOM CRUISE!!! and me, happy birthday me. i'll be going to a family reunion sunday for the brittish side of me, then it's off to the bay to see punishment and party like i'm not driving home the next day.