I figure I must be living strategically since I seem to have no idea at what I'm doing, where I'm going, and what I want. What other explanation is there? How could I of come this far, came this close, close enough to how and why? I'm strategically waiting, wasteing time and letting years go by. Dutifully observing my memories, skipping stones of ( Read more... )

I can't.

I can't wait to start school again. I'm going to attempt 18 units and two kids. I'm planning on taking an administrative justice class, an intro to psychology class and a psychology class I took like six years ago but never finished, a health science class, intro to economics, and a sociology class. I figure these will give me enough writing to do ( Read more... )

In stead of stumbling through words that are incapable of summing up exactly how I feel, I'm going to quote other people who are making the same attempt to express themselves. They can say it for me and there's plenty of comfort in that ( Read more... )

My dad has hepC and liver disease. My mom has the same hereditary auto immune disease as all my aunts and grandmother and myself have and we're all gonna die from it one day probably but they're all gonna die first since their older and I get to see them suffer from it and look forward to the same. My fiance Spanky has some weird liver damage thing ( Read more... )

winchester mystery house sucks. there, mystery solved.

I can't wait to start school! My grandma always had this frigerator magnet stuck to her frig that read: " today is the first day of the rest of your life.". I never understood that. I would sit at the counter and stair at it and try to figure out what it meant. I would analise the picture that the words were imposed on, but I never understood it. ( Read more... )

i am not exempt. i should learn to take my own advice. "well what did you expect." it's not so much what i expected, but what i believed in. i never wanted to be this close anyway, i knew better, but he just made it seem so real and so strong. i was weak. what should i believe now, it's never gonna be the same. i'll just placate myself by saying ( Read more... )

My sister moved to mississippi and i don't think i'll ever see her again. I never told her about her dad as i remembered him. i didn't want to hurt her. she called once when she got there, gave me her phone number and address, but i'll never call or write, she lives with a voice I never want to hear again. i hope her life isn't the horror show my ( Read more... )

Forget it, I just wrote out my whole journal entry and accidentally deleted it, so I'm going to be my predictable superstitious self and believe that it wasn't meant to be posted at all. I'll sum it up by saying that suicide is stupid and my friends should stop doing it. Hope ya found it on the other side Robert, but you were brilliant here. They ( Read more... )