Well I haven't had much to say about my life, maybe because I've been to busy living it? I read over a lot of my old entries. It's sad to think about how shallow and obssesive I was when I was on drugs. I'm not caught up in the scene drama anymore at all. Lizzie and I are talking again, but I doubt it will last. Amazingly Jeremiah and I are friends ( Read more... )

I can't believe that I'm having a baby with the most amazing person, I know. With my bestfriend. I feel sappy, and lucky.

I'm starting to show.

I feel lame because I never update anymore. Jacob and i are having a baby. He freaked out at first, well we both did. But we're working things out and now we're both pretty excited. My parents have been absolutely wonderful about everything, I'm really lucky. I almost never go out anymore, because I'm to tired to do much of anything. But when I do ( Read more... )

I had my first ultrasound Thursday. It was really weird. It doesn't look like a baby yet. It mostly just looks like a tiny bean. It's transparent and we could see the little heart beating like crazy. 116 beats per minute, I guess that's normal. Jacob looked pretty stunned the whole time. He said he was expecting it to look more like a baby. I haven ( Read more... )

Anyway, here's an update on my life.I turned 20, yuck. I did have a pretty great birthday. Both of the Doverspike brothers got naked, and acted like dorks. Joe Brown got wasted and told me that if he ever got a girlfriend, he would have to murder Steph and I. I enjoyed copius amounts of free cocaine with Nik and Steph.Drank a whole lot of beer. Got ( Read more... )

I'm getting my wrists pierced today. I am terrified. But I'm also very excited. Getting my nipples done the second time was the most painful piercing to date, but I'm sure this will be much worse. And my baby girl is gonna video tape it for me.....

Well to update I hung out with Sid and Chris for a little while, when Jacob went out of town. I had to do it then because he doesn't exactly love it when I go over to Rob's house ( Read more... )

It seems like everytime I update my joournal I have another death to write about. This time it was Courtneys father Gary. I refuse to refer to him as my uncle. He shot himself and stayed on life support overnight. And so I'm wondering, when will my family get a break? I feel sick. Suicide's disgusting.

"Love is not a victory march it's a cold and it's a broken Halleluiah.....Well maybe there's a God above, but all I've ever learned from love is how to shoot somebody who out drew you. It's not a cry you hear at night, and it's not somebody who's seen the light it's a cold and it's a broken ♥Halleluiah ( Read more... )