when i was just a little girl, all i remember mostly are the good times. or at least that's what i try to do. but every now and then, i'll run across something that stops me in my tracks and follows me through out the day. like today, i woke up late. i was gathering some things from underneath my bed. some drawing things, a magazine, and a pencil ( Read more... )

 okay, so today hasn't been the
best of days. mostly because i've
been dwelling on the past.
but... it's probably the most
comical in a while.
my comic relief came from
stubbing my toe on the corner
while carrying my unmentionables
to the washer. yes... my grandmother
died laughing. so therefore, i laughed
while screaming in pain.
my cat walked over to ( Read more... )

 i keep trying to understand
all these tests.
all tihs pain.
all this hope.
there is hope, right?
sure there is.

i'm really tired of being betrayed
or talked about.
it makes me extremely
uncomfortable for people
to be talking about me when
i'm not there.
and i know it happens a lot.
i guess it's just my being
paranoid.

i miss being intangible.
unattainable.
i guess ( Read more... )

so i quit my waitressing job ( Read more... )

i got to see hailey and my neice last night.  
that was so nice. i had missed my little bean (mckenna).
she was giggly and happy the whole time.

so yeah it poured outside and i was in my
car just in time to hit every puddle on the
side of the road.

i've been listening to colbie caillat and the decemberists
like crazy. i just can't get some songs out of ( Read more... )

i've been running constantly ( Read more... )

 You take your clothes off ( Read more... )

yet again... i've lost it all.
but this time, i did absolutely nothing
to deserve this.

i've begun the numbing.
i need someone to inject my heart
with anesthetic.

i still have some remnants to squeeze tight. 

act one
scene: 209480932840298402

wow. i should take ( Read more... )