what i am going through right now in my life is so intense. i have no way to describe to anyone the way it is all making me feel... but it is overwhelming and amazing and i wish everyone could experience it. i understand not everyone would understand, or want to learn, or be open, or be ready... but it is incredible. the people are incredible. the ( Read more... )

i haven't had access to a computer, or a free second to write really... this is from friday, october 14th.

i wish i was as invisible as you make me feelIts funny how quickly people get "busy" and forget about you or don't have time for you anymore when you are thousands of miles away... I'm not one to judge on this matter at all...but I love how ( Read more... )

i was hoping i could tell you this with two feet on the ground, but i don’t think i can talk because i’m not very stable right now.i feel it happening again... and i am so scared of that. it's almost as if i feel each finger slowly losing its grip. i literally feel myself falling away. it’s the worst feeling in the world seeing yourself losing ( Read more... )

secret oathi’m racking my brain trying to comprehend ( Read more... )

((i wrote this while on the plane, but i decided to post it without reading over it again haha... i am in my car stealing wireless on some side street soo yeah...))

so my journals are vague most of the time, so what? i believe i said in the beginning, there are only a few people that even truly attempt to understand my thoughts. i mean, my head ( Read more... )

oh summer life, oh summer life, crawling with these worms ( Read more... )

i'm trying to create something that's not there ( Read more... )

we sent out the SOS call. it was a quarter past four in the morning when the storm broke our second anchor line. four months at sea, four months of calm seas to be pounded in the shallows off the tip of Montauk Point. they call them rogues; they travel fast and alone--one-hundred-foot faces of God's good ocean gone wrong. what they call love is ( Read more... )

i had a dream last night that i remember too vividly.

so many random people i used to be best friends with in it.

confused.
uneasy.

not sure how i am supposed to feel about them all being past "best friends." the one who can never live up to her name was in it. she was calling me names that don't even make sense, but the fact is, she was ( Read more... )

LindseyPool island : English ( Read more... )