i'm not ready yet.

this song reminds me of a time i felt so sure of everything. hearing it reminds me of our warped tour in 2003... nights full of shocking moments and numbing smiles. the smell of their RV. kisses, hugs, and friends. big brothers and new lovers. meeting the ones we held on a pedistal, and meeting those we saw high out of their mind on the parking lot ( Read more... )

not quite sure where i'm supposed to feel okay.

not quite sure where i'm supposed to be.

not quite sure how i'm supposed to feel.

i'm perfectly well rested, but i'm feeling sorta numb again.

lost feels stupid.

silly or just sad?

http://www.purevolume.com/troysmixtapeoflove

come on ( Read more... )

seriously? no one has anything to say? no one reads this?? depressing.

and the hardest part
was letting go, not taking part
was the hardest part...
and the strangest thing
was waiting for that bell to ring...
it was the strangest start

i could feel it go down
bittersweet i could taste in my mouth
silver line in the clouds
oh, and i,
i wish that I could work it out.

and the hardest part ( Read more... )

i keep thinking i'm hungry, but then i can't eat.

i keep thinking i'm tired, but then i can't sleep.

i keep thinking the TV, the internet, text messaging, a DVD, sommmething will entertain me, but i'm still sooo bored.

this is all becoming quite irritating and i'm ready to feel differently.

i'm ready to feel happy sometime soon.

*i have no words to share with anyone*

i am having so much trouble sleeping at night lately.

i just sit there in "bed" awake... my mind just wont get tired.

it's really starting to frustrate me! :-\

sometimes, i wonder what it's like to be you. i often wonder what it'd be like to be anyone but me.

i'm seriously addicted to the new death cab stuff. i mean, i always know anything ben gibbard does i love... he has beautiful thoughts and even more beautiful ways of verbalizing them. he seems to say it all just right. perfect ( Read more... )