this is the first time that after a while, instead of acting like a little kid and saying i hate mama and tata that i realize i'm just really hurt. all i did was ask them to buy me a pair of jeans today, WHICH I WOULD HAVE UNDERSTOOD COMPLETELY had they said no. but they went crazy. tata told me i ruined his day. i mean, seriously. they see me for ( Read more... )

i just got back from nicks house. while i cried and made a fool of self for about 30 minutes we reached a conclusion: i deserve better, he needs to change but i can't wait around for him to ( Read more... )

someday you realize that no matter how many lung burning and stomach turning tears he made you cry, every time you catch his eye in the hallway, your heart will skip a beat. your memory will go right back to every night in his room, laying on his chest or summer midnights on your driveway, hand-in-hand. you'll think of how after every other guy ( Read more... )

when he calls, don't answer. not that he will. or that you'll know the number you drunkly deleted last night when it was all you could do not to heave your phone from four stories up, but when your stomach jumps and your gut tells you it's him, don't pick up. but instead listen to all the sad country songs you want and every saturday night when ( Read more... )

it's nights like these when ashley leaves my house early to see him and i'm left reading harry potter that makes me yearn for somebody. but not just somebody. him. not nick. not curt. not sammy. not harrison. not these boys that i've been giving second chances to. somebody new..somebody to just completly sweep me off my feet. on the outside, i don' ( Read more... )

don't do this again. DO NOT OVERANALYZE. trust your gut and it'll all be okay. he loves you. please don't ruin it.

i guess that's how you really know you've grown up. when the only time i talk to mama is when we're arguing. all i want is to be normal. isn't that what i've always wanted? i HATE not having money. hate. and i quit kmart, but oh my god, i hated it there. i just thought of putting my happiness first, for once. but i have to pay for my own prom dress ( Read more... )

i've changed again. looking back on regina spektor, beth, mary and every night at common grounds i realize i'm not anything like i used to be. it scares me. is this who i am? am i going to change again ( Read more... )

when you were king ( Read more... )

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of ( Read more... )