I've spent three weeks with Jeff, and I feel as though I am falling for him already. He is very down to earth and really sweet. We have the same morals and values, and he is a generous person. He cares about what I feel and think, and he doesn't care that I make more money than him. His family seems normal unlike Joes, and he cares about his ( Read more... )

I'm finding that I really like Jeff. The more time I spend with him, the more I am forgetting about Joe. When I think about the time I have spent with Joe, there is still part of me that longs to be with him, but after all I have been put through, I just want to move on with someone who is truly great. I feel Jeff and I have a lot in common, ( Read more... )

I felt better about things with Joe earlier this week, but now that a few days have gone by, I just want to move on. The weird thing about it is that I am not panicky at all, and I am just accepting it for what it is. It's over. I am fairly sure of that, and it's ok. I have a great guy who is really into me, and I have a fullfilling life to ( Read more... )

After talking with my friend Matt, I don't think there is another girl in the picture. Matt told me that most likely Joe did plan on romancing me that night, but probably because he needed and wanted that intimacy, otherwise he would be getting it else where and wouldn't need to see me. This made me want to be with Joe even more. I want to be ( Read more... )

UGh......when will this feeling end? I remember with John it took at least 9 months of him not leading me on and only calling me once every 3 months or so. That is until I told him never to call me again. How can I get over Joe when he continues to lead me on and break my heart over and over? I feel as though he wants to be with me, but the ( Read more... )

Saturday was my birthday, and it was both the best and worst birthday I have ever had. I woke up and it was cloudy and dreary and matched my mood perfectly. I was supposed to go to the Iowa Vs. Iowa State game with Jeff, but I had missed my alarm for some reason. I called him and told him I was still at home and would not be able to go with him ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up very happy. Sometimes I think that when I wake up either upset or happy it is because of some dream I had and that feeling remains even though I am unaware of a dream I had that influenced those feelings. It was a nice change to wake up and feel at peace and happy. After writing a pro/con list about Joe, I realized he ( Read more... )

Today was yet another roller coaster of ups and downs, although I feel as though I have more control over the situation. I'm back to that place I was a few months ago when I wanted Joe to want me. It's not that I think we are right for each other or that he deserves another chance, because God knows he doesn't! But I am just upset I guess at the ( Read more... )

This being far away while going through a break up royally sucks! It is so hard when I can't talk to friends and family. The only one I talk to is God and occasionally people on the trip, but I don't know them well enough to really confess how I am feeling. Plus I don't want to drive people nuts. Right now I feel like crying. It hurts so bad ( Read more... )

After 5 weeks have gone by, and one week since I sent him an apology/I forgive you letter, he finally sent me an apology message on facebook. Although I am not sure what to think about it. I guess it is good, and it shows that he is maturing about the whole situation. He is also owning up to what he did to me. He said how he was sorry for ( Read more... )