I gazed down at her hands, admiring her shiny rings. "Can i have them?" I would say, "no not until you are older." She would say. She was the only one who ever really understood my innocence as a child. My parents had hired her to watch me because they never seemed to have time. But i didn't care. I would always go up to my dad and tug on his ( Read more... )

Fuck it, i give up on everything

Im sorry for everything

Why does everything have to happen like this?! Why do people hurt me like this?! and why do i take it?!?!?!

Okay so i dont know what to say, and i dont know who to believe, and i dont know what to think!! I DONT KNOW ANNNNNNNYYYYYYYYYTTTTTTTTHHHHHHHIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGG!! It sucks, because somebody tells me one thing, and then someone else tells me something different and then wow.  Everything is just going wrong, and then turning in every which way ( Read more... )

Ok so we are back in school, yeah and there is soo much, im so torn, i just got reminded again about how stupid i was, that never feels good, i also got reminded im not good enough, that always hurts, i wrote a lovely piece about someone today in creative writing, and i had to share it, that was no good, annyways im having a rough night, someone ( Read more... )

What marley said on her journal:'(

FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG HHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!! Why does she have to be so pretty?! Why does everyone have to be so pretty?!?! Grr.

I dont know what to do!! Im soooo completely torn, and im tired of not being good enough for anyone!! Like seriously, ive thought this before but now its proved, aaaaaaaaah! Fucking hell!!! MArley, its not you, im not mad, its ooookkk! And Bre i love you to death!! Thanks for everything, and you too jades, i love you girlies, i just...im not good ( Read more... )

Fuck this, i hate it. Im so close to the edge, im so close to just being done for good now.