find your happy beginning

[loveclouds]

find your happy beginning
changmin-centric, implied yunho/changmin
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the anticlimactic affair of changmin's suicide.

for oannapantso &hearts :3! a part of suicide!verse and its sort of!prequel. read those first to avoid spoilers :P. and obvious warning: this entire fic is about suicide, rofl.

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[oannapantso]

spot spot spot. brb, reading the rest.

[loveclouds]

hahahaha hi

[oannapantso]

hey :3

-applause-

UM SO I LOVE YOU. i don't know if you knew that already, but let me just reiterate: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

there was so much wonder about this. :D the anticlimactic affair of changmin's suicide... god, you're such a genius<3 i'm in love with changmin's normality. and also his morality.

IF I HAD TO PICK A FAVORITE PART, IT WOULD BE...

... ugh, just kidding, i tried. but nope. Mostly you had me laughing at some points, and pressing my face against the screen at other parts in anticipation, and omg i love you.

[loveclouds]

hahahahahaha omg i love you to. :))))))))))))) ♥

i don't think cases like this in real life are half as dramatic as movies and tv make them out to be. and i always found that to be one of the saddest parts. :( there's nothing BAM FIREWORKS GASPS ALL AROUND about it. :((((

i'm so happy you liiiiiked 8D ♥ :3333 thanks for kicking me in the pants, btw. LOL.

[loveclouds]

;) haha, i love changmin and i kept wanting to write something for him. so now i finally have! :)

and...the other fic, the sort of!prequel? the jaechun? that was jaejoong's. lol.

[doovlynsidhe]

- no more playing with mangdoongie :((

SOBBING

- reincarnation (make me into a mini-cactus cellphone charm, dammit! are you listening, universe!?)

SOBBING AND LAUGHING

These stories are so good. This is a bit of a touchy topic for me so I was a little apprehensive reading this particular verse. :|

However, the way you handled the material was wonderfully done. Good job, bb. :D

[loveclouds]

that's a huge compliment, thank you!! :3333 suicide carries so much social stigma with it that i find it's either dismissed as juvenile or shamed like no other. i could just be extremely liberal, idek. i do think it deserves to be talked about, though! :) and despite your unease, thanks so much for giving them a try. :D

♥

[doovlynsidhe]

I completely agree that the topic is often not discussed in a calm or logical manner. This just hit a little close to home because a good friend of my family's took his own life a few weeks ago. When we talked about it my family was in agreement that if the topic wasn't something that tends to be ridiculed/swept under the rug there would be more awareness in preventing it from happening. So your fics in this verse - though some might say it's unconventional - are in their own way a step towards that progress. &hearts

[loveclouds]

i'm sorry to hear about your friend; it must be hard for everyone, but i think it's great that your family's open to discussing it. i wish the best to everyone. :) ♥

[blurmeese]

akjshdgaks suicide!verse omg I never thought I'd see this again

make me into a mini-cactus cellphone charm, dammit

...omg I lol-ed so hard.

It's more economical to buy more but he really only needs one.

oh dear god Changmin, I can't believe it but somehow, in a deep dark part of me, I can see him actually doing that. Urgh, I missed this verse so hard, it's just that...idek, your style feels different here? Stripped down and more matter-of-fact, more often than not, suicide!fics tend to be overdramatic and full of whinging but this ♥

It fits.

[loveclouds]

omg jooooo ;_; ♥

hahahaha i think i can see him doing it too. he's already a very critical person to begin with and i think pushed to the point of absolute apathy towards his life, he WOULD be analytical about buying razorblades in bulk. ;_;

and eeeeeeeeeeee i am so flattered!! :'D my face is like :DDDD but then i remember we're talking about suicide so i try to tone it down to :)). LOL. ♥

[loveclouds]

LOLOLOL BRIEFLY, YES.

ilu too ada ♥