what is my PROBLEM today?

[loveknot]

Also a bad idea: listening to The Last Five Years at work.

Triply bad: listening to "Nobody Needs To Know" for the first time in probably a year and a half. I've refused to listen to it for such a long time-- I'd make people skip it if we were listening to it in the car. I feel like my bones go cold and it always makes me cry. It just... hurts to

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[ellabella_lala]

I still can't listen to this song. Ever. No matter how steady I have things in life and how far I am from those memories, just hearing it breaks everything apart and fumbles everything up. It's hard to make sense of things after that.

I've been cheated on too many times. And demeaned and diminished and dehumanized and pushed so far away. No one should ever have to go through that.

I'm sorry you did.

I can imagine how difficult this show will be for you (and I have imagined, as it's also a dream role for me), but you are so strong and so brave and so talented. It will be beautiful. I'm excited to see it.

[ellabella_lala]

Also interesting- I never interpretted Cathy as being jealous of Jamie's success, just frustrated that she doesn't have an equal amount of it and angry that he seems to lose respect for her because of it.

That's such a more interesting choice- for her to be jealous. Bravo.

[nova25]

You are amazing and lovely. And that's all.

[lilac_spring]

*big, big hugs*

Ironically, Shelby Starner's "You" just started playing and it fits this entry quite well, too. It's a song Brian introduced me several months ago.

Anyway, you can get through this. I know the show brings back lots of memories and you'll have to face a bunch of things, but you are a strong person and you can make it. I know you will.

<3